I wished i could get myself out of this mess.
I wished i could control my mind, and not let it go wild.
I had such a terrible time thinking about you. :C

Yup. All because you doesnt know about it, that's why it's terrible.
If you know, it wouldn't be terrible anymore, isnt it? Obviously!
But, i just cant speak up my mind about it. Oh wells

It's impossible, no point brooding over it? Yes, i know.
Whateverrrrr. Perhaps, everything takes time.
I suppose, same applies to this as well?

Anyway. Dont ask me who i'm refering to.
I wont be letting it out to anyone, i choose to keep it to myself.
&, i prefer to stay anonymous to you (:

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I Love EstherLim, dearest steadstead!♥

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Today's school was fine, i guess?
Chemistry : 5minutes of lesson, and it ended.
Chinese : I was so sleepy, so boring.
English : Got back prelim paper. Compre - 6/25. Summary - 17/25. Another fucked up result. :C
Social Studies : Teacher on course, free period. Studied geography while chatting with Rasheed & Enrique. (:

School ended at 12.30pm. Stayed back all the way till 4pm.
Self study for the whole 4hours, how great. (I'm already trying my best.)
Slept for 30minutes in class, couldnt take it. Off, back home by feet.

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Anyways, quite a few songs added to my playlist :
1. Paparazzi - Lady GaGa.
2. Boom Boom Pow - Black Eyed Peas.
3. I Gotta Feeling - Black Eyed Peas.
4. 21 Guns - Green Day.
5. Love Drunk - Boys Like Girls.
6. Evacuate The Dancefloor - Cascada.
7. I Know You Want Me - PitBull.
8. Heal The World - Michael Jackson.
9. You're Not Alone - Michael Jackson.
10. 心愿便利贴 - 元若藍& 吳忠明
11. 我的快樂.
12. My Love Will Get You Home - Christine Glass.
13. Jai Ho - Pussycat Dolls.
14. Nobody - Wonder Girls.
15. One - Epik High.
16. 1 Minute 1 Second - Epik High.
17. My Life Would Suck Without You - Kelly Clarkson.

Long Long Long ago, wanted to add in these songs.
Just cant find the time to do so, thanks to the lagness.
Currently playlist with a total number of 54 + 17 = 71 songs.
It has been set to shuffled mode already.

If you wants to change song, just refresh the page :D
Anyway, they're up on blog now. Enjoy :D

TAG REPLIES.

Nicole : Honeypie! Heh, thankks. Loveyou manymany :)
Zenri : Yupyup, cause alot people said the same thing, so decided to change ;x Loveyoutoohs :D
Raquel : SecretLoverrrr! Hahaa, try looking for it at bugis bah, though i bought it at China. :O Loveyoutoohs :D
Esther : SteadStead! Hahaa, Happy 1year in advance tooh! Alrights, i will for sure! It's our date :P
Zhengbiao : Lol, you see also never see me before leh. Of course laa. Hahaa ;x

Ciaos.

P/S : I always spend that few seconds just to peek at you.

HELLO, lovelies (:

I'm here, i'm here!
Of course, finally i'm here.
After such a long break, long maintenance of rebecca-x33.bs.com!

As you can see the moment you came my blog,
i've changed my blogskin! Claps claps. :D

Yes, you yes. I mean Y-O-U.
I love you yesterday, I love you today, I love you tomorrow,
& afterall, it drags on for years, what i realised after years is,
I love you still. x______x
(Hah. I know, you dont know i'm talking about you. But i rather keep it a secret.)

I wants to add more songs to my playlist,
but i'm lagging like @$#%#%34#$, so .... shall not do it today!

Oks. Skip that stuff first.
Shall just roughly elaborate from Tuesday till today bah.

22 September, Tuesday
I didnt attend school, again.
Due to something which happened to me on the previous day.
Something which almost took my life away, i was scared stiff.
Yes. I almost died. Fucked up meal i had.

Was out with family. Miracle that dad wants to bring us all to a movie.
Went to Yishun. Before movie, we went for seoul garden for dinner.
Halfway through eating, i actually swallowed something effin sharp down my throat.
Yeah. It just got stucked at my throat, pricking the hell out of me.
The feeling was so .... difficult to describe, that's it.

Visited the washroom umpteen times, and vomited umpteen times.
Just wanted to get the bloody stick out of my throat.
I guess it came out? I dont really know.
It's really pricking the hell out of me, i had such a terrible night that day.

Couldnt get myself to sleep. Thanks to the unbearable pain.
Thought of texting people, but it's quite late in the night, end up didnt do so.
Just by swallowing saliva, it will give me that unendurable pain.
How could i possibly not swallow saliva? Eh..?
& also, didnt ate anything, not even water for the whole day.
I toss and turn on my bed, for almost 2 long hours.
Trying to put myself to sleep, but to no avail.
That's the worst day, i ever had in my life. x________o
I'll remember it so vividly.. :C

23 September, Wednesday
At last, i attended school.
Classmates and friends were probing me with questions and questions.
"Aiyo, very long never see you already leh. Why always never come school?"
There i went explaining again and again. But still,
i truly appreciated you people's care and concern towards me :D
Hah. I miss you guys as well (:

First period of the day was, PE lesson.
My favourite lesson of all lessons. At least it allows me to have fun.
Practially played basketball for the whole 1 hour. :D
However, somehow felt so weak and restless while i was playing ~
Been ages since i last played basketball, you know?!
I miss throwing that basketball into that basket!
Even though blindly, miss most shots most of the times. ;x
Mr Chia kept on disturbing me :C , & so i disturbed him back.
He's also another kok-eye like i am. :D

Maths : Boring. Got back prelim paper.
Geography : Boring. Got back prelim paper.
English : Mr Mazlee on MC. Free period.
Physics : Boring too. Got back prelim paper.
Chinese : Was okay. Got back prelim paper.

End school. Went to westmall's library myself.
Read up on some books while waiting for mum to arrive.
Had SakaeSushi for lunch cum dinner. (:
I told my mum about my results that i got back.
Perhaps, she's too lazy to nags at me anymore. It's obvious.
She's not angry, neither is she upset about it?
Just that, she knows she cant do anything? Guess so.
Hah. Told her about the poly course that i'm craving for. :)
She didnt objects, neither did she agrees. So, up to me perhaps?

24 September, Thursday
Woke up with a headache, flu and running nose. :C
Illness started since the previous night, thanks to my sensitive nose.
Was thinking not to attend school today AGAIN, but end up change of mind.
Been absent from school too often lately, afraid teacher might think i'm playing truancy.
So just went ahead, regardless of my goddamn weakling body.

D&T period. Slack at class.
Played taptap revenge with Melanie using Marcus and Xuemin's iphone.
Hah. Had much fun tap tap-ing though. :D
Went down to d&t workshop, gotten back prelim paper.

Maths : Boring. Didnt pay attention to teacher at all. Was doodling my own stuffs.
English + HPP1 : Mr Mazlee on MC again. Free period. Got back Chem prelim paper.
Studied geography on my own for that 2hours of free period. Was real sleepy -..-
Stayed back for awhile just to cover up that few pointers, and back home by feet.

Realised all those "Got back prelim papers" words italic & coloured?
After getting back like 12345...6 prelim papers.
I only passed ONE and, failed FIVE!
Regarding this matter, i've no comments or whatsoever.
All failed badly, terribly bad. I dont know what to say or do either. Forget it.
I merely managed to pass my Chinese paper, 46/70. Which is considered lousy to me as well.

Perhaps, i just want to tell myself something.

"Buck up lah, Rebecca!

Stop getting fucked up results!"

& the rest, nothing much.
That's all :)

Since there's only one tag, cause i locked my blog.
I shall reply it on tagboard itself then.

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P/S : I wished i didnt fell in love with you. What to do now? I dont know.

Okay. HELLO, dearest.
Apologize, Sorry!
For not updating my goddamn blog.
It's getting lack of post, isnt it? :\
After 1234567....8 days of not blogging!
Rawrrrrrrs. :O

Anyways, i shall blog a long post today?
Regarding past 8days. Should be long enough ;x

14 September, Monday
No school, thanks to A maths paper.
Hahahah. Stayed home, for nothing.
Anyway, i forgot where i went. o.o"

15 September, Tuesday
D&T paper. Gross :\
Part A, was so fine. Because mostly are basics?
Part B, was so disastrous. LOLLL
I actually left the whole Question 7 blank ;x
There goes my mark lah. But, neverminds.
Just hope it'll pass then.

16 September, Wednesday
Got woke up by Larry's message.
Wasnt feeling really well at first.
Thanks to the goddamn menses -.-
Prepared and trained down to CCK to meet Larry.

Oh. Saw that tortoise there, Chua Yi Wei :P
Hahahaha! Didnt expect to see him there though.
It's like, we both down there keep looking -.-
Too long never see each other already, forget. LOLL
Larry came, trained down to Fajar with Yiwei together.

Yiwei went off. Dont know go where o.o
Went to Mac with Larry, goddamn you leh.
Keep di siao siao :O
We waited and waited, finally that WALLACE came.
That took him so long to come .__.

Skipped. Blahblahblah.
Larry yeo, Wallace Toh, dare my money :C
LOLLL. Wang Ba Dan. Play with my purse.
Took out money, took out PPC.
Si Larry, tsk. Super daring.
Actually used my money buy 2 dont know what CORNETTO MCFLURRY?
That's what they said, i dont know got this icecream also -.-
1 for wallace, 1 for larry. Me got nothing :C
LOLLL. Joking. Anyways, that's a treat okay you two pig.
Dont say i so bad already :D

Skipped.
Continued with our studying.
3 of us, kept on kena distracted. So irritating.
Worst thing is, THE TOPIC THAT WALLACE & LARRY ARE TALKING ABOUT!
Goddamn, i had such a ________ day with them. LOLLL (Faints)
Oks, shall not spoil their reputation here okay -.-

Later on of the day..
2 goddamn lesbian walked into Mac.
Laugh die me one okay, what the.
I dont know how to elaborate, it's just gross.
Gross until the 3 of us couldnt take it -.-
Larry & Wallace, dont know what they thinking. LOLL
Seriously. Is a instant curry noodle so difficult to finish? LOLL.
Me dont understandddd, Larry & Wallace explain? :x Hahahaha!

Skipped. Back to studying again.
I forget what we done. Then Larry came doodling my hand with Wallace's marker.
LARRY YEO, I HATE YOU FOR THAT! Jidannnnns :C
Draw until my whole hand sia, Zz.
Wash also cannot wash away, my god.
But hor. Thanks WallaceToh, for the markers =____= !
You two a a good combination of - BULLIES.

Skipped. Around 6pm plus, William came.
Was talking about Chemistry at first,
end up they all talking about BIOLOGY?!?!?!?
Damn you, me no take biology leh . LOL
But their biology topics are ............... one !
Gross die me. Listen until i want go bonkers.
The 3 big guys, are mad, i know :D

Later on, Yimann came.
Went off Mac. Wallace left first.
GreenRidge? > Yimann home > BBP > HOME.
I want kill Larry & William for that. :D
Lucky i took the right bus home.!

Anyway, had a fun day. But i only know,
Whole day tio bullied by Larry & Wallace & William :C
Nobody help me x_____o ! Grrrrs.

17 September, Thursday

Happy Birthday, Ken. :D

Science MCQ paper. It was ... okay.
Just that, i somehow made quite alot of careless mistake ;x
Paper end, sat outside General office with Melanie & Jing.
Discussing where we should actually go. Since it's the day our prelims ends.

Everyone bused back home, bathe, prepared.
Met at MRT platform. Trained all the way down to Simei, for lunch.
That's such a ulu place to us, first time we went =____=
After lunch, trained down to Changi.

Our destination - Changi Airport, Terminal 3 !
Photos, photos, and just photos.
Went to the new hotel, Crowne Plaze Hotel.
It's so freaking HIGH-CLASS. LOLL
We went to the washroom for cam-whoring session :B
The washroom has such a good ambience!
That we actually spent so much time cam-whoring in it. LOLL

Skipped. Alot things we kept on repeat.
We just merely walk and walk, snap and snap. That's all we done.
From Terminal 3 > Terminal 2 > Terminal 1 > Terminal 2 > Terminal 3 > Terminal 1.
LOL. So dumb alright. We walked until legs are so wobbly.
Finally, rest at Terminal 3's Viewing mall.
Taking photos still. Yup, had much fun.

3 of us, are all tired out.
Trained all the way back to batok.
Reached home - 8pm plus.

Thanks for the fun, sisters :D
Let's go out more after O's.
What's the next stop? :D
Much Loves.

18 September, Friday

Happy Birthday, Gwen Jieh! :D

Was suppose to attend school today for Career day.
But, i pon-ed school. Great.
Thanks to my menses cramp right in the morning.
I couldnt get out of bed, and so ..... like that lo.

Woke up in the noon by Mum's call.
Prepared and bused down to Jurong East.
It was raining so heavily :C
Went to IMM with mum & littlebro, for lunch.
Yup. Went shopping around, that's all.
& back home after that.

Stayed home all day.
Uploaded the photos of 17 sep to facebook.
Upload until i want die, tag until i want die. So many -.-

Thanks to the things i'm thinking about,
thanks to insomnia, i slept at 4am :D
& i actually played facebook's bejeweled blitz until 2am plus. :O

19 September, Saturday

Happy Birthday, Nadiah! :D

Stayed home, yet again.
Skipped skipped skipped.

I slept at 5am. How great!
So dumb alrights. I just cant stop thinking -.-
LOLL. Sorry Larry, i cant. It's difficult.

20 September, Sunday

Blahblahblah. Stayed home again.
Everyday stay home, i'm gonna rot to death.

Did nothing, except for facebook.
Yup. Including MSN, Plurk and so on.

I slept at 5am again!
Was watching a movie using PSP last night.
"The Girl Next Door". Totally gross okay!
It's a R21 show somemore, wtf -.-
I didnt know it at first, after i watched finish, then i realised.
Grr. LOLL. Okay la, anyway. That movie is so lame :)

After movie, i finally get to sleep.
Because my eyes are FINALLY closing.
Didnt managed to wait till 6am plus, send bro back to camp.
Rawrrrrs. Sians. :\

21 September, Monday

No school :D
I just woke up at 12pm plus.
Dumb leh, now nothing to do again.
I want go out :C

Oks, anyway, i shall upload a few photos.
Zz. I'm abit lazying now. ;x
Somemore my lappy is lagging like shiat.
Eh i reply tags and upload at below's post x.x

(This 2 post took my 3 long hours to post. LOLLLL!)