Fuck. I'm super pissed.
Dont understand why,
my trust to people,
are always being cast aside.

Just what's wrong with it.
See now? Problems arise.
I've to face a situation now.
All because of, mis-trust.

Nahbeh -.-

Will be posting again later on..
Bye.

&, Ranted at 12:58pm.

ILOVEYOU, ESTHERSTEADSTEAD! :D
Hehhehs. How sweet of you!
Blogged 3days talking about me. Hahs
Will find free time to go out with you!
Yays. Thanks for being there always.
You're not just my ganstead, but my love :3
Hehhehs. Loveyoulaaaaas, my dear (:
{♥}

&&,
Happy Birthday to Enrique! :D

Cheers. Today's featured, EstherSteadStead :3
She's the best steadstead i ever had.
Hohohos! Paiseh Paiseh* about the friendster :X
LOL. I spammed you, because i missed you.
Hahhahs. Wells, i just loves you (:

Hey, i've the urge to do some quizzes.
Anybody have any quiz to do? :D
Tag me, tag me! I'm more than willing to do.
Tqs tqs! :D

Wait a minute. Let me apologize on something.
I admit, I've been quite vulgar these days :\
Whether is it on MSN's personal message or Facebook's shoutout.
LOL. Sorry laa? I'm just really pissed over someone's act?
If you knows me well, you should know i seriously hates hypocrites.
&, even worst.. I hate hongsters even more!
Goddamn you, if you are one freaking hongster.
Stay far far away from me -.-
Hah. Thanks a million if you do.! :D

&&. Stupid MSN i've got.
Seriously, noob msn. Lol
Cannot even add new contacts to it!
What the heck .___. !
Now now, i've quite a few numbers of new contacts in pending.
Rrrrs. Jidans x.x
Anyone msn prooooos? Help pleaseeeeeee? :3

School's gonna open in like, 1..2..3..4 days time!
Tooooots! Why did our 4weeks of holiday ended so fast?
&. No extended holidays! Aiyo.
Plus! When school re-opens, we've to stay back everyday till 4:30pm!
Wahhhhs. That's gonna be mad. Intensive subjects time x.x
Let's chiong? x.x"

Okay. Here. Notes for 5NA people.
Whoever who did popped by my blog, or my bloghopper.
Lol. Neverminds. If you do, it's just a reminder (:
As some of you cant seems to find the file ahhhs.

{For All 5N2 people, Miss LeeCL said, there'll be a file "02" to be downloaded, and a file "03" to be printed out at the school website. It's about the travel form. If you cant find it now, means it's not been put up by the school yet. So check it frequently! Note : print it, fill it up, & hand it to form teacher on Monday when school re-opens. &&, new schedule, 4:30pm end school when school re-opens! lol. Thanks :D}

Toots. It's posted at my Facebook's shoutout.
If it slipped off your mind, go there to read again.
It's according to MissLeeCL.
So, do remember! If not you're gonna get chanted at! :X

Lastly,
I want to watch Transformer, Revenge of the fallen!
Transformer is niceeeeeeeee :D

TAG REPLIES.

Melanie : Singapore luh. I said he went genting with us liao leh. Aiyoyos.
Silverine : Hahh, alrights alrights. Loves
Stacia : Precious. Heh, you too laas. Thanks loads. Loveyou (:
Yuni : Tkcares too ~
Rachel : Preciouslovee :D Yeah, 2more days :DD Loves*
Esther : Hohoho. Steadstead, you're being featured :3
Zhongpeng : Hah, i'm fine. thanks, you? (:
Lihuey : Hahah! Oh yah sweetheart, leave me your link! I forget x.x
Xiwen : Lollipop, yeah i will! Hah. Loveyoutoo (:
Junhui : Hello Erzi! Missyoutoolaas (: Hah.
Sheryl : BabyHeart! Alrights, thanks loads. Hehs, loveyou :D
Joey : Hello Nuer! Hahah, still more than me ahs :X
Xinyi : Lol, yeahs. Damn fast huh! Tsk tsk.

Ciaos.

P/S : Hongsters, fuck off. Thank you (:

&, Ranted at 7:07pm.

Happy birthday to CHUA YIWEI! :D
Oops. No, it's 1000 year tortoise!
LOL. Eh wrong la, it's 1001 already.
Hahahha! Super lao wugui :X
Better stop "swimming" so much!
If not you know what'll happen! LOL.
Lalalaa. Keep that sms that i sent to you ah!
Anyway, enjoy your sentosa tomorrow :D
Sorry about not going ah. You know why also! :\
&, thanks for being there for me today (:
I guess, your words calm my down.! Hah. Thanks!
Loves.

&&,
Happy Birthday Ziloon Kor :D
Alright. I came to blog at this hour,
just to wish that super old tortoise happy birthday.
LOL. Anyways, i should be going off by now la.

I'm worried. Bout stuffs.
Some people know it, but please keep it to yourself.
I dont want too many people to know.
But if you ever asked. I might consider whether to tell.
Cause it's not a good thing either. X.x
Alrights, shall not bring it up now.

Will reply tags on the next post! :D
Sorry peeps! Go go, tag :D
Yays. You're all so L.O.V.E.D!

Ciaos.

P/S : Somehow, i regretted some of my decisions in the past! Damn it.

&, Ranted at 1:41am.

Heyya, i'm back :D
Havent been blogging for like 9 days.
Hah, wasnt convenient plus busy.
Well, I just post whatever i could remember yah.

14 June.
Went to PC show with family.
Packed with people -.-
Squeeze until dont know like what ah.
&, didnt buy anything though. lol
Head on for dinner at Kovan.

15 June.
Stayed home. Boredom.
Nothing much also.
Just using facebook all day long.

16 June.
Was suppose to attend the 5NA bbq @ Marco's house.
But, was held up by family dinner.
So didnt went instead. Ah, Sorry girls.
Next time round yah? (:

17 June.
Firstly, Happy belated birthday to WallaceToh.
For once i celebrated your birthday with you,
which was like 2years ago, when i'm still your mei ehs.
Lol, oh wells. That's a long ago story. Forget it (:

Outing with some 2N2'o6 people to Sentosa.
Yep, even though there's only 7people, but it's fun.
Hah. Went sun-tanning with Melanie and Jing.
Volleyball, Frisby & others.

Saw Larry there :D
Hahah. Thanks yeah, help me buy water x.x
Bathed, and off we go.
Went cam-whoring with Melanie all around Sentosa.
Really took quite a lot of photos. lol

Went off around 6plus.
Trained down to Outram to meet mum.
Went to turf city for dinner with whole family.
Hah. Foods there are ultra cheap, nice as well :D
Reached home kinda late.
Tired out.
&, turned into a Reddish red lobster :O

18 June.
Was suppose to go to school, for the nyonya trip.
But, wasnt feeling quite well in the morning.
So didnt went. Ahh .__.
Slept in till noon.
Played mahjong at night, till 3am plus.

19 June.
Didnt sleep the previous night.
3am plus, started preparing.
Left house at 4am plus.
Breakfast at mac. As though we booked the whole Mac. lol
Off we go to Genting :D

This time round is different!
Because Elderbro followed us there :D
Reached around 10am plus.
Earliest time we ever reached :0
Went for lunch, and back to check in room.

Elderbro fall sick ):
Perhaps he's not used to the weather up there?
Didnt went playing much.

20 June.
Dad, Mum, Elderbro went Casino.
There i bring my littlebro go around playing again.
Hah. Outdoors :D

10pm plus. After dinner.
Dad, Mum, Elderbro went Casino again. lol
So, went to arcade with littlebro.
Lol. Played one game, i beat the highscore :O
Laughing until quite mad with littlebro.
Head on to count out tickets :D
Total tickets : 1079 tickets.
Lol. And now, thanks to that. My hand pain :\
Hahahah! thanks to the throwing of balls lah.
Back to hotel room, played psp.
Played with littlebro, pillow fight. LOL
Watched tv. Until 2am plus, sleeep!

21 June.
Early morning woke up.
Packed up, and off for breakfast.
&, off we leave Genting (:
Reached home at around 5plus.

At night, went for dinner.
&, elderbro went back to camp.
Back home again.

22 June.
Elderbro called home..
He's being quarantined..
I'm really really worried about him.. D;

The whole company, being quarantined.
Because of the swine flu, they went to Taiwan.
&, one person among them gotten the flu..
Now they're all being quarantined.
Really worried about him.. ):
Hope he'll be alright..
*prays*

Shall post those photos the other time round.
I've lots lots lots of overdue photos.
That time always lazy to post x.x
Now become alot :X

Alrights, you. There, you.
I've gotten over it, somehow i dont know why.
I know, i'm plain stupid to cry.
When i dont even get any care or concern from you.
It's real stupid, when you dont even bother?
I guess, after all this nonsense,
we wont be as close in the past. I know..
From what i know, it's all a dream.
Oh wells, thanks then.

In any case. I'm not gonna think about you anymore.
No more, and that's it (:
I end it now, once and for all.
You know who you are to me, that's more than enough.
I wont ask for much either, That's all i want from you now.
Thanks much, grateful to you IF you can do it (:
Farewell :D

TAG REPLIES.

Melanie : Hah, did you high-ed on that day? :D
Larry : Your this month anniversary, seriously i cant x.x Sorry ah.
Yunyi : Ha, loveyoutoo! Yes, cyber bully. Let's go ! :X
Stacia : Precious. Hah, thanks! Okay, meetupsoon! Loveyoulaas :D
Jenna : Hahah. Welcome (:
Xiwen : Lollipop! Okay, thanks yeah. Loves*
Rachel : Preciouslovee, thanks for tagging. Same as my msn! Missyou :0
Nicole : Honeypieeee! Loveyoutoooo! :D
Shirley : Xingan. do it asap yeah. Loves*
Kaili : Hello Sweetie :D
Senghong : Erzi. Hah, thanks for tagging. Loves*
Zhongpeng : Hello erzi (:
Janice : Hello, Hah. Thanks yeah :D
Yuni : Okay, nuer (:
Raquel : Hello secretlover! Lol, loveyoutoolaas my dear (:
Lihuey : Hah, Sweetheart! I been playing that :X Lol. Videos are nicee!
Jolyn : Cupcake :D Hmm, rckz_1992@hotmail.com! Thanks yeah :D Loves*
Kevin : Hello didi, Thanks loads. You're loved (:
Esther : Steadstead! Heh, i heart you too! But, more than you do :P
Chihpeng : Hey there. Relink-ed! :D

Ciaos.

P/S : I did it (':

&, Ranted at 3:40pm.

Happy Happy Anniversary!
Of course, to that prettaye Lady up there.
None other than, Kerh Yunyi :D
You're my dearest Kiddopartner/Darling/Boyfriend! :3
Thanks for being there for me this days!
& the message yesterday at 12 midnight!
{Note : Let's cyber bully again? :B} Oops.

&&,
Happy 8monthsary to StaciaPRECIOUS!
You're just as loved by me.
Thanks so much for comforting me!
&, that blog post you made for me.
Heh. Loveyou :D

&&,
Happy 17th Birthday to Wanting! :D

Ho-ho-ho :O
I wonder what's up with me, seriously.
I'm really weird, to the max.
Tsk tsk.

Yesterday night went down to airport,
to fetch elderbro back from Taiwan :D
Ah! It's like 12am we left house.
& back home, at 2am plus.

Reached home, got down car.
My eyes was still closeeee.
Dad hold my hand, and i close my eyes to walk.
Lol. As though i'm blind :X

Elderbro bought me a Tee shirt from Taiwan :D
Hah. A tee shirt produced by a company called, CuteLand.
Lol, it's really cute anyway.
Thanks so much to my dearest brother :D

Hmmm, alrights. Schedule up, i guess?
Monday - Back to school, for the final touch up ba.
Tuesday - 5NA BBQ at Marco's house. {Hello? I dont know whereeee!}
Wednesday - 2N2 gathering @ Sentosa. Not really confirmed yet :O
Thursday - Chinese learning trip, to Peranakan culture @ Joo chiat road (:
Friday to Sunday - Nothing's up. But i wanna go out lehs. Who who? o.o

Fourth week. No more going out already ba.
School starting anyways. Blah.

Rahs. No more posting of unhappy stuffs.
I wont do that already .__.
At most, i keep it to myself :D

TAG REPLIES.

Simin : Welcome, loveaffair.
Racheal : Yep, i will. Ha, thanks my dearest mei (: Loves*
Melanie : Awhh, which day which day! Anyways, how's on the 17th? o.o
Esther : SteadStead, thanks for the support! You're super loved, my dear (:
Yuni : Okay, thanks nuer ^^
Rachel : Preciouslove! Yep, okay i will! Heh. Loveyous (:

Ciaos.

P/S : I'm weird, arent i? :X

&, Ranted at 9:03pm.

Back, again.
At this hour, i'm kinda sleepy.
Somehow i felt moody.
I dont know why @.@

I'm going through the hardest time of my life,
trying to get myself out of this scariest nightmare.
Afraid i might gives up halfway x.x
Sorry in advance, if i do.

Too many, uncountable things around to distract me.
It's the fact that i get distracted easily.
If i really gave up, really no choice :0

Anyways. Went to school as usual.
But only difference is, only half day today.
Guess i'm done with my coursework? Not sure ehs.
Left some painting and joining stuffs to do.
Been filing, sanding, buffering acrylic non stop.
Really super tired x.x

Bused down to bukit panjang with M,J,E,G,X (:
Lunched at coffee shop, and went to G's house.
First time i went to G's house, after knowing her for 5years :X
Watched television, chit-chat & waste time.
Ha. Went into her room, played with the computer.
M went playing around in facebook, using X's account.
Tsk tsk.

Left at 4.30pm.
Bused back to batok with J.
Reached home, started using computer.
At last, i settled my msn problem.

&. Sorry ehs, something happened when we left.
Well, i really hate that. Seriously.
I've been very sensitive to that particular thing,
for years. That's why, i overreacted :\

Elderbro coming back tomorrow, i think.
Well, i really missed him.
For the past 2weeks when he's not around.
I wished i could share my troubles with him,
but i just cant do it. D:
I dont know how to, make the first move.. x.x

TAG REPLIES.

Simin : Loveaffair, Relink-ed.
Joshua : Ha. Thanks (:
Raquel : Thanks yah. You're loved as well. &, i will (:
Senghong : Erzi, Relink-ed.
Melanie : I'm afraid.. &, 17 referring to the date, not that la ._.
Yuni : Nuer, i will. Thanks yeah. Loves*
Guest : Ah. Thanks, i will (: Anyway, you are..?
Cyrus : Aiyo, why again? I told you no more sad tag already lehs! ):
Caryl : Ha. Alrights. Tkcares too! &, i will (: Thanks much.
Jenna : Yeah lo. Okay, i will. Thanks (: You too. Jys on your art & O's!

Ciaos.

P/S : I'm in a serious dilemma, Wanna bang wall soon.

&, Ranted at 8:25pm.

I'm back to my blogger! (:
Just got back home from school.
Somehow it's a great day today.

D&t coursework kept me busy for the whole day.
I've no time to think of whatsoever things.
It's already thursday, tomorrow is friday.
&, i'm not yet done with my product.
Of course i'm getting panicked.
That's why kept my mind ultra busy.

Lunch time. At coffee shop.
After finishing, went around to shop for stuffs.
I need some sponge for my product! -.-
Oh wells. Found, but it's the wash dishes that sponge.
Tsk. Let me try finding it again..

Back to school.
Made out my black&white wheels.
Only managed to make one -.-
Tomorrow need make another three more.
Rrrs. Still like got alot things not yet done..
Regretted wasting so much time day dreaming the first few days.
Aiyo. If not i should've done everything.

4pm, workshop closed.
Went to find Miss Lee with Eileen.
Was like listening to Miss Lee talking about buying new laptop.
Asking us for advice on which to buy that'll save more.
Okay, so chat for awhile. & back to work stuffs.
On a excursion trip next thursday.
She called up people and talked alot alot until they agree to go.
Was like laughing so madly with Eileen down there.
Cause her tone was like really very funny :0

Went down to general office to find Melanie, Geokting & Jingjing.
The 5 of us, was like chatting down there for the whole 2 hours.
Oh my. I didnt know we can like chat for such a long time together.
Ha. That's great anyway. Suddenly had a good feeling from it.
Well. Not gonna say. Ask me? Perhaps, i'll tell (:

But, during the chat.
Found out some bad news about friend.
Oh wells.. We didnt expect that to happen as well.
We could only hope he'll be alright? That's all.

6plus. M&G&E went home.
Left me and J. She ahh, want my mum fetch her home.
So waited for my mum to come.

Oh great. Somehow, i let out alot alot of 心事 to her.
Mostly, on relationships matters..
Ah. Anyways, Thanks for listening yeah.
I think, i feels better after that?
A listening ear is always good (:

Reached home at 7pm.
Dinner, and here i am blogging.

Wells. Okay.. I thought things through carefully.
Since i know what will happen if you leave me for long.
Perhaps, it's time for me to stop.
Stop having those unneccessary thinkings.
& treat it as a normal lesson for me to learn AGAIN.
So maybe.. I should stop thinking of everything.
& i meant everything, including you & stuffs.
It's a difficult task, but i'll challenge myself to do so..

What should i do? I told myself..
Everything that has to do with you, keep it well.
Memories with you, put it behind, inside my "memories place".
Stop crying for you. To let you feel at ease.
Not contacting you as much. To let you have your peace.
Yep.. perhaps there's more. Let me think

I'll look ahead of things.
Perhaps, you're just not my right guy?
You'll find your perfect girl, but it's definitely not me.
You'll surely find that perfect lady that loves you most.
All i have to do is, Let go of everything & Wish you the bestest luck.
Yeah. As usual, i'll just treat you as my precious didi (:
& giving my brotherly love towards you, that's all.
Yes. I decided to let go, & i'll keep my words.
{though i'll still miss you.}

I'll changed away those photos in my blog.
Cause, i think you're not feeling good when seeing them
when we're already not together.
Yeah so. I'll take it away (:

Audi couple thing.
Let me just have that as kept memory
Thanks (:

Oh and one final thing, i cant possibly keep it.
Your PSP and the charger, is still with me..
When you're free to meet up, let me know.
Asap ba alrights? Thanks.

& you better stop having the thinking that
you caused so much things to happened.
Nah, if you wants to find fault..
i'm the one who shall take up all the faults (:
& you? Lead your lovely, peaceful days with your brothers & family.
Okay? Cyrus, you're my bestest brother (:

Well. Final time i gonna say.
No avoiding, No ignoring from you.
At least show some respect to me..
I didnt deserved to be ignored by you.
Whatmore i did nothing wrong to get that punishment.
Yep, when you're busy or doing something,
just let me know. I'll just say "Byebye didi" as usual.
But dont always when i talk to you, you always tell me same thing ah ._.
So, no more of it alrights? (:

Alrights. I cleared everything up.
I'll just restart my life all over again?
Anyway to those friends,
Melanie. JingJing. Joshua. Yunyi. Caryl. Larry. Nicole. Rachel.
Esther. Stacia. Kaili. Joey. Sophia. Xinyi. Yiwei. Zhengbiao.
Meiling. Senghong. Yuni. The Passerby. &, some of my online friends.
Thanks for comforting me, & talking sense into me (:
Loves*

Upcoming events are increasing.
Shall update those events on tomorrow's post.

TAG REPLIES.

Cyrus : Nah. You didnt, i did. Thanks di, loves.
Pb : Oh, thanks for caring yah. But, can know your name? :0
Joshua : Ha, alrights. I will. Thanks lots (:
Larry : You know? What what? Ohh, see when i'm free x.x
Shuhua : Relink-ed. Loves*
Melanie : Because you like orange colour (: &, 17 isnt it?
Stacia : Still, thanks really much! You're so loved.
Jolyn : Cupcake. ilytoo x3

Ciaos.

P/S : Picking myself up. New beginning, learn to live on my own.

&, Ranted at 8:45pm.

3rd day without you.

Oh wells. Time really flies.
It's the third day already.
Isnt it fast? Guess it's all clean forgotten.
But i'm still in a dilemma X.x

I want to stop thinking about you.
But at the same time, i want to as well.
Should i, or should i not?
I cant make decisions :0

I know i can do it if i wants to.
But, on my other side of thinking, i dont want.
Perhaps by thinking non-stop, will only make myself more miserable.
Oh wells. But... Aiyo.

Went to school as usual. Later than yesterday.
Back to those acrylic pieces. My ferris wheel is done.
Perhaps friday could finish? Hopefully.
That's what Mrs Wong claim.

&. Somehow. My finger got cut-ed.
Whatmore it's quite a deep cut.
The inside flesh can be seen x.x
It's like pain until dont know what.
Touched until water, vvvvvvvery pain.
Zz. Hope it heals asap.

Break time. Went for lunch.
I wasnt allowed to eat KFC by who? MelanieTay.
Oh wells. She didnt tell me the reason why.
But, come to think of it carefully. I actually know.
Blah. So head on to Mcdonalds instead.
Didnt wanted to eat in the first place.
Kena forced again x.x
Tsk.

Back to work. Until 4.30pm.
I was already dead beat.
Legs are like so so tired ehs.
Standing whole day doing work.
Energy all used up.
Infact, i doesnt have any energy? :0
Waited for them to pack up and leave together.

Insisted on walking back home.
Even though i was really really tired.
Melanie again, dont let me walk home.
But this time, i win :\
I walked home alone. Under the torturing hot sun.
Really quite hot actually :\
But who cares. I just want to walk ~
Purposely to tired myself out. Yep.

Reached home at 5.30pm.
1 whole hour just to walk home.
Imagine how slow i actually walked!
Usually only 15 to 20minutes will reach.
Blahblah. Okay, dead beat.
Extremely restless right now ~
Task accomplished (:

Uh? Somehow i realised i'm kinda stupid nowadays.
Kept on messaging some people non-stop.
For examples, sent a message to 5 different people.
But, got back no replies at all.
If not is they reply halfway stopped replying.
Ha! I'm really dumb, right?!
Yeah i know. Oh wells.

I'm very very bored at home alone.
Zz. I wanna go out..
But, with who? -.-
Must find the right person to go out with!
Rrrr. I really dont know ahhhhh!
One fine day, i'll go crazy at home.
Yep, i will at this rate of being alone & boredom.

&, Spammers. Fuck off?
Stop making any nonsensical comments.
I'll not reply to it, but only delete.
It's my blog, dont like it?
Nobody even asked you to click on my link.
Dont have own blog? That needs you to go around tagging lame stuffs?
Or dont know how to make one? :0 Aww, sad.
Need to teach ah? Get a teacher to teach you how lo. haihs
Lamers, no life bastards. Get lost (:

When you're gone, Avril Lavigne

I always needed time on my own
I never thought I'd need you there when I cried
And the days feel like years when I'm alone
And the bed where you lie
Is made up on your side
When you walk away
I count the steps that you take
Do you see how much I need you right now?
When you're gone
The pieces of my heart are missing you
When you're gone
The face I came to know is missing too
When you're gone
The words I need to hear to always get me through the day
And make it ok
I miss you

TAG REPLIES.

Cyrus : Well, i guess.. it's hard to see it again? idk. I know it'll take quite a long time to settle everything. By then, i think.. yeah you know what will happen.. &, okay. Thanks. But i'll control the amount of messages sent to you..

Rachel : Preciouslove. Alrights, thanks. Loveyoutoo.
Kaili : Oh okays, i'll do it asap. &, i'll try.
Joey : Nuer, thanks. I will.
Nicole : Honeypieee. Yeah i'm okay (:
Pb : Hey. Thanks for the advice. Anyway, you are..?
Caryl : Hello. Well, it's true that we're not that close :\ Anws, thanks ya x3
Melanie : You orange bao :0 Okay okay.. when you going with them?
Larry : Well, she's good (:
Yunyi : Kiddopartner. Alrights. Larry ar, forget where my house le :X
{: : Hey, you are..?
Yuni : Nuer. I'll. Loves.
Stacia : Precious. Alrights, i'll try my very best. Thanks so much. Loveees*

Ciaos.

P/S : I'm Tired&Sick.

&, Ranted at 7:23pm.

2nd day without you.

Fucking torturing. I dont know why.
I cant figure it out myself. What's more is you & friends.
Nobody knows what's up there in my mind thinking about.
Decided to keep everything to myself.
When i couldnt take it, _____________
Well. I dont know ~

Once and the last time i want to say this, i hope.
I'm not used to my current life. Extremely, bu xi guan!
Not used to alot alot alot of things..
It's just exactly like, someone just took EVERYTHING away from me.
Just in that single seconds, they're all gone.
How to get used -.-

Never changed anything. Anything that got to do with you.
I cant bear to. I cant forget someone so easily.. No way
Handphone's wallpaper/Screensaver, remains the same.
The monkey handphone keychain, remains the same.
Everything in blog, remains the same.
The things in the lovely red box, remains the same.
That lovely white shirt, remains the same.
It takes 1 single second to like someone.
It takes 1 minute to fall in love with someone.
However, it takes days/months/years/lifetime to forget someone.

Oh. &, sorry.
I disturbed you yesterday.
Didnt mean to..
But still, there's no reply.
So, makes no difference bah.

Went to school as usual.
I fucking hate today :0
I almost cried in school! Zz.
Yeah lah. Thanks to the goddamn acrylic piece.
Keep crack crack crack!
Made me redo the same thing over and over again!
For 3 times! Wtf x.x

1st time crack - For no reasons why. It just crack.
2nd time crack - Goddamn weijie crack it purposely.. Fooks
Was like so pissed off then, feel so like crying.
Keep doing the same thing over and over again..
Which is like those process that needs to repeat & repeat.
File, Sand, Buffer. File, Sand, Buffer. File, Sand, Buffer.
Piangs eh. I almost gave up halfway -.-

Break time. Followed them to coffee shop.
Didnt eat. Well, sorry melanie :0
People no appetite to eat laaaaaaaaa. Rrrrrs.
Stop calling me purple bao ):
Although that bao really is nice.
My childhood favourite bao okay! x.x
Toots toots.

Went to Melanie's house. Just for dinner .__.
Okay. I'm soo tired can. Tsk
Blahblahblah..
Reached home at 8pm.

There, i'm at home ALONE again.
I'm so sick of being alone. Zz.
Last time, i rather i'm alone at home.
So that i could talk freely. It's different now, that's why.

I failed to cut.
Other day perhaps.

Oh wells. I wanna go out for a stroll..
By the seaside, by the beach, by the roads..
Just to keep myself calm, and get back my stable emotions.
Someone, Somebody take me there pleaseeeee...? D;
But if really went, forgives me for being quiet, or cry.

爱你不是两三天. Chorus only.

爱你不是两三天每天却想你很多遍


还不习惯孤独街道拥挤人潮没你拥抱


爱你不是两三天一眨眼心就能沉淀


你是否想念我喔

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Ciaos.

P/S : I'm starting to torture myself (:

&, Ranted at 8:54pm.

1st day without you.

Surviving through the remaining days alone.
It's even worst than being dead.
I rather i'm so dead now.
Perhaps by then, i can manage to stop thinking.

Yep, as usual.
I cant get myself to sleep yesterday night.
I did tried to sleep. But to no avail.
Try reading stories book, failed.
Try flipping through textbooks, failed.
Try doing workouts to tired myself out, failed.
No matter what ways i tried, i still fail.
Zz. There i sat on my bed, throughout the whole night.
Like some lunatic person, sitting down there in deep thoughts.
Staring up to my room's ceiling that's filled with lovely stars.

I remember.

For once, i told you about the stars up on my ceilings.

You saw them as well. Isnt it beautiful when lights are turned off?

There's just one particular star, which is the biggest of all.

I always took it as you. So that i could see you every night.

But, it glowing power seems to fade away.

It's leaving me further and further away :0

I'm tired, really very tired..
After 2 long days of non stop cryings..
I wished to sleep, to let myself rest.
Dont know why i just cant seems to fall asleep.

Went to school as usual, for d&t coursework.
Was like kinda really no mood to do anything.
But, i still have to. Forcing myself to do & forget things.
Wells. I thought i could do it, but.. yeah.
I didnt. While doing, i'm still thinking.
Sorry Melanie :0 You thought i stopped isnt it?
&, for not sleeping yesterday night .__.

1pm, breaktime.
Followed Melanie, Jing, Eeming, Wanting for lunch at CC.
Walked back to school after eating.
Halfway, went to the playground.
Thereeee.. all my thinkings starts to come.
Yeah.. that spinner reminds me of everything.
That HDB void-deck reminds me of everything.
That bench where i got mosquito bite reminds me of everything.
Zz. Everywhere i go :0

Back to school. Continue with the work.
Thanks to the filing process of the acrylic.
Made my heart even more pain. Zzz ~
Heart was already in pain, add on with that eerie sound @.@
I almost wanted to screamed my heart out -.-

Do all the way until 4plus.
Wanted to walk back home, but ..
thanks to melanie. Restrict me from walking home -.-
Insist me on taking a BUS home, instead of walking.
Yep, dont need think. It's obvious, she doesnt want me to think.
Btw jie ah, the moment i got off the bus. I starts to sort of cry :\
So.. No difference lehs x.x

Back home. & there comes.
I started crying out, as much as i could.
Cause of hiding it all inside when in school.
Keeping those inside, seriously sucks.

Tomorrow's tuesday. Well, was suppose to go out with you initially.
But now.. Cancelled, no more x.x Haihs.
I wants to go out..

Sorry.
I claimed that i'll smile, i'll stop crying. But, i didnt.
Oh wells. Leave a tag whenever you're here (:
&, dont block me in msn if you intends to, or thought of it.

If you done it, unblocked it please.

Cause, i didnt do anything wrong to deserved being blocked ._.

&, maybe..
I wont be taking away the column of romance.
Yep. I dont wish to.
Let it just remains there (':

Been listening to Fish leong's song past 3days.
Wells. I always never listened as clearly as now.
It's old songs anyways. Download it if you doesnt have (:
Read through the lyrics.. & understands it well.

勇气

终于做了这个决定 , 别人怎么说我不理 , 只要你也一样的肯定

我愿意天涯海角都随你去 , 我知道一切不容易

我的心一直温习说服自己 , 最怕你忽然说要放弃

爱真的需要勇气 , 来面对流言蜚语

只要你一个眼神肯定 , 我的爱就有意义

我们都需要勇气 , 去相信会在一起

人潮拥挤我能感觉你 , 放在我手心你的真心

如果我的坚强任性 , 会不小心伤害了你

你能不能温柔提醒 , 我虽然心太急更害怕错过你

P/S : I miss you.

&, Ranted at 6:44pm.