♥ He's equivalent to my life.



Peekaboo. ♥
These few days like no much of the right mood to come blogging, I'm still worrying about that dear boy of mine. ): He's just like a criminal now, being cooped at home, no phone, no comp, can't go out. Rawrs. My kelian de baby, hope he'll be able to regain his freedom asap. Wanna see him happy everyday instead of being so moody being cooped at home all day. ):

But. Being in such a situation, he still never fails to call me up everyday. Before he leave house, when he reached home, before he eat, before he bath, & before he sleeps. He knows I'm worrying because I couldn't contact him. But he's still that lovely, calling me to make me be at ease knowing he's alright. Sweet boy, loveyou. ♥

Still waiting for the chance to meet him up, ahhhh. I damn fucking miss him like fuck, really wanna give him a big big hug. I swear I'm so gonna hug him tight when I sees him ): But, I wonder when... T.T

Babychia!♥ I know you're suffering, bear with it alright. You'll get back your freedom soon! I'll always be accompanying you to go through it aye, don't sad sad already. My heart aches whenever I think of you suffering x.x . I wanna TT , I wanna tickle you , I wanna do many many things with you again. We'll be able to meet asap, don't worry. Just takecare of yourself for the time being kay, I wanna see you in a good condition! F3. Hehe, thanks for calling me up everyday despite the risk of getting scolded. You're really bold, I know you did it for me though. :$ Thanks baby, I'll make you smile non-stop when I sees you, promise. ^^ . I love you!♥

Being with you is simply what I live for. ♥

♥ He holds the key to my heart.



Bad day today, I spent my whole day worrying about my dear boy. & I injured myself 3 times because I was in a listless mood, wasn't alert enough to all those things which injured me, pain die :/ But not as pain as how my heart aches, knowing my dear boy is in trouble. ): Something unlucky happened to him, he had a bad bad day too. Sigh, hope he'll be alright. Been praying nothing would happen to him, thank god, he's fine now, for the time being though. Well, at least, he's safe and sound. I'm glad to know that enough. (':

Baby called me right after the moment he's done with his parents' lashing, argh. I'm really so against family violence, zz. Hope baby's injury are alright, I can't get to see him now, all I could do is hope, hope and hope. Tsk.

Hopefully bad days would be gone soon, but no matter what gonna happen, I promised I'll be there for you, be there to go through everything together with him. Wouldn't leave him alone no matter what, ♥

Anyway, had a great great day with baby yesterday. Yeah, slack under void-deck, as usual. But it brings me lots of joy, even if it's just slacking. Each time I see baby, I'll pass him a letter that I wrote. Everyday, I wrote one letter. If I didn't get to see him for 5days, means I'd pass him 5 letters at once. Hehe, just hope he'll be happy smiling just by reading them. ♥

Really hope to see him soon, really wished to be there to hug him right now and calm him and cheer him up. I know he's down, yet I can't be there beside him. ): I feels bad, all I could do is just text and text.. Sighs. Hope he's alright, seriously. *prays much* . ♥

11:11 , I hope everything will be okay for you, nothing bad would happen, & you to smile sweetly to me again. ♥

Babyboy, I hope you're able see this. I'm really worrying about you damn much, really wants to see how're you doing. I've many other things to worry about, but you still wouldn't leave my mind no matter how many million things I've in my mind. You mean so much more than anything else, praying so much that you'll be alright, nothing bad would happen to you. I know you're down, you're pissed off with things which happened today, & I'm not there to cheer you up these days. Just think of everything we always done when we meet, especially TT. Hopefully you'd smile after thinking of all those. Or better still, re-open up all those letters which I gave you, re-read them. Whatever it is, stay optimistic and keep your smile on your face my dear. Remember I always say, your smile is always priceless to me. I love you. ♥

♥再也找不到比你更好的人。

Most fucked up day ever in school. Know what, I learnt something.
Innocent people? Go fuck them. They aren't innocent at all, they're just so damn fucking cunning inside. Causing all the problems to you, and they get away scot-free. Fuck you, bitch.

Got chased out of class, almost got kicked out of course just because of a fucking project? Yeah yeah, joke. After being chased out of class, was damn fucking pissed off with Siti & Miza. Sat around and just chilled, stop talking for a moment. Went off to library to do that fucking project, role play -.-

After we finally chilled, we finally did it. Oh yeah, had so much laughter with them, including fifah. Okay, at least, it gain us better friendships. That's something to be happy about. Out of all the role plays I ever done in my life, I think this 3 role plays is the best I ever done. LOL, damn fucking funny. Breaking of plastic spoons cus of ice-cream "too hard". LOL. Never will forget it man.

Tiring day, reached home at like 8pm. Webcam with baby again (: Really miss him. Just wanna see him real badly these days. Hehe. Loveyou baby, your goodnight texts always never fails to let me have a good sleep. ♥

♥ Daily happy pill.



Peek-ka-boo. Alas, back to blogging! Been busy the past few days, or rather, a bit of a laziness. I got the laziness from baby :p Lalalaas~ Just wanna blog about Friday, that sucha memorable awesome day of mine. ♥

Didn't attend school on Friday, due to laziness + woke up late. So slept in, woke up and mapled awhile before I went to prepare everything. Left house at 1pm, finally managed to be on the way to meet my dearest sweet love. ♥

Yes, like finally. After the both of us been waiting for so long, counting down the hours till the actual time we both meets. Hehe, how cute. It's the first time I ever did that uh, actually it's kinda fun y'know. (:

Reached Hougang in like 45mins time, yup. & there that cheeky baby of mine, asked me to walk to his house on my own, & it's my first time doing so. I almost got lost, LOL. But, so fun hor. Easy to go tho. Wakaka baby, becareful uh. I know how to go your house on my own already, hehehe! Stalk you one day :p

Slack slack awhile at shelter with his 2 friends, Bryan & Weisong. After that went to coffeeshop while baby had his lunch. Poor baby, tummy hungry while waiting for me. :/ Sorry baby, hehe. Skipped* Bus over to AMK hub, straight went up to buy movie tickets. Baby bought nachos & popcorn, wow. Lovely, we both share ♥

Went straight in to cinema, Transformers! Hehe. Okay, we were so engross in feeding each other, rather than being engross in the movie. How great, but nevermind, it's worth. :$ Kekeke. Kept on feeding till almost half the show, y'know, how sweet is that. Aww, baby let's do it again soon okie!♥

Finally finish out foods, during show halfway, we all went out for a leak. Drank too much water? Haha! K, went to toilets. Baby disturb Weisong, threw his slippers into girl's toilet, LOL. Funny maximum, made me have to go in take for them. Hur hur. Baby's such a big bully, but I still love him. :$

Went back to cinema, change our seats. Sat right at the back of the cinema, was sitting right at the front initially tho. Hehe. The back seats so shiok, sat at the corner, and baby sat beside me. Alas, it's a better seat, you know why? Cus it's couple seat, the handle can pull up :$ Wakaka.

& by then, I was like freezing cold that my teeth are chattering non-stop. Legs and hands are so fucking cold. But thanks to baby, he hugged me real tightly, giving me so much warmth. ♥ He's like the first person who ever hugged me that way in cinema, nobody has ever done that, none. He'll be the first, and the last to do so. ♥

Okay, we're so not paying attention to the movie for a period of time. Cus was TT-ing with baby, awww. ♥ Really really miss it damn much, baby! I wanna do it again can? Soon soon, make it soon!♥

After movie ended, went off. Baby bought ice-cream, & shared with me. Keke. Sweet sweet :D Went to slack under void-deck for awhile before we head back to Hougang. During the bus ride, we had so much fun. But, something happen. Yes, me and baby were feeding water. & I feed until his white shirt become brown, cus of the chocolate milk. Whoopsy, sorry baby :p Hehe, no more next time, won't fail again!♥

Alighted at the wrong stop, one stop after the actual stop. Bryan & Weisong continued the bus journey. So yup, went to slack awhile with baby under void-deck again. There we had our world of our own, love it. Playing our unique way of loving with baby, how fun. Laughing non-stop. Baby never fails to ask me, "why are you so cute?" . Hahaha! Baby, I think you're cuter. ♥

Hi babychia, I know you're reading. Yes, thanks for the day. It's really sucha awesome day out with you. Really enjoyed myself to the very maximum. Such days like this, will always have. Hehe anyway, hope you like the thing I gave you. Keke, you'll have more coming your way each time I meet you. ♥ Yup, hoping and awaiting to see you this Tuesday. Love you so damn much, you're someone who bought the most and the loveliest happiness to me. I really love you, from the bottom of my heart. ♥

Ohyeah, baby said his mom allows me to go out shopping with them (Baby + his parents), and call her, "mummy" . I was secrelty being so happy. ♥

你是我永远的情人, 我愿意爱你一辈子. ♥

♥ Sweetest drug addiction.



It's thursday, you know you know?! So which means, tomorrow is a FRIDAY.
Oh yeah oh yeah, my date out with my dearest babyboy, is finally tomorrow! Seriously can't wait for tomorrow to come, haven't seen him for days. Wonder how've he been these day? Just miss him damn fucking much. ♥

I swear I'm gonna enjoy my day with him to the fullest tomorrow. Had much much fun webcamming and chatting on the phone at the same time with this little cheeky cute love of mine on msn just now, he kept making me smile like nobody's business. How awesome is he? Absolutely awesome. ♥

My plan for tomorrow : Go to school for the first lesson from 8 - 11am. & pon the next lesson of 12 - 2pm. Straight back home right after that lesson, idgaf about that teacher. :) Home, bathe, and off to find babyboy. Yes, that's it, settled! :)

Lala. I'm turning in, my eyes are closing. Babyboy is lying on bed now too, we're both tired out by school. Fuck this shit :/ Blah. K nevermind, we're so excited awaiting for tomorrow to come, like seriously I mean it. 16 hours left to be able to see him, awwww. ♥

Babychia, 我们之间所说好的幸福，我等着你。♥

♥ Pampered love.



Ellowello. Weird day today, I behaving weird. My thoughts run wild, aiyo. Just worried about family, nothing else.

But, thanks to babyboy. He wanted me to be independent, he wanted me to smile on my own. Okay baby, I did it. I smiled on my own. Because all I was thinking was you. I wanted you to be happy, so I smiled. But don't worry, I'm smiling willingly and truly too ya. :) Hehe.

Someone's addicted to the song, What are words. Hehe!
Baby, our words will always be true, we always mean what we say, don't we? Your promises and my promises, we'll make it done, right? :) We'll go through all the thicks and thins, ups and downs, together. I promise ♥

Oh yeah &, I've always been trusting you with my life since then, don't worry. I might be paranoid at times, as I told you that before. Cus I'm really just like a baby always lack of security feeling, that's all. Hope you'd understand me, sorry in advance of whatever stupid things I do or think, you know I don't mean it. Cus I really love you, ♥

I can't wait for friday to come, our TT session, really really miss it. ♥ & I've to feed you too, remember? I promised you yesterday, hehe. Wanna see you badly, our kiss, our hugs, our unigue way of loving & many many more. Loveyou!♥

We'll walk side by side, hand in hand. My promise to you ♥

♥ Nothing could replace his importance to me.



I swear I miss my long hair, like damn fucking much. This photo taken like so long ago, almost more than a year ago. Damn! I really want my long hair back, provided my hair condition is much better :( If not, I'm going for hair extention which my mummy promised me to help me with it. :p

My skipping of school habit is somehow back again, classmates been asking where have I been to, telling me they seems like not seeing me for a long time. Oh wells, I was just skipping school lately. Just doesn't feel like going school, really feels like quitting school, I swear. But, I won't bah. Course also finishing -.- Whatever it is, I admit, I'm getting from good to bad, bad to worse. Yeah, now I belong to the "worse" category. Blah blah~ :/

Let's talk about something happy instead. Of course, my dearest boyfriend. Duh! None other than him, who kept making me smile and laugh non-stop. Thanks him for yesterday noon, I was on the verge of crying because of some stuffs, but only he was there to cheer me up and make me smile with all his efforts. Really appreciates his hard work, and his love of course. ♥

I really don't know how to finish saying how good he is, y'know? Perhaps just by summarizing, I can't even finish summarizing in within a 100 words. It'll take me pages and pages, days and days, or even years to describe how lovely he is. He put in so much effort in this relationship, I really love him max, I really do.

Just like what he merely said on facebook yesterday, when I saw, I really really went speechless. Because I really didn't expect that. I was damn, touched.

" It's impossible to break her heart, I'm born to love her . No1 else could ever replace her ♥ . Without her, I would die. I go learn sewing. So I can mend back her heart even when she's a little upset♥ But I could use my heart and replace the place with a scar. I would do anything for her, and I fucking mean it ♥ "

Hah by the way, if you want to tell me, a guy could do anything just to get a girl, I know. But, I'm so very sure he did everything truly. So yep, don't doubt him, not a single bit. I swear I'll not be nice to you, if you ever wants to spoil my relationship with him, or spoil his reputation, not even badmouth him. :) Don't ever come to me commenting on how he is, he's not for any of you to judge :) Cus I simply love him just the way he is. ♥

After being with him, whenever I goes to school now, all I heard is disturbs from my lovely classmates. There they will go with all sorts of disturbs, and I'll be damn shy and keep smiling non-stop. Actually, it's a great feeling somehow, can't describe when friends calling out to your lover's name to disturb you, and there you go smiling so foolishing to yourself while thinking of him. ♥

Okay & you, baby. Fuck you :( Stop making me worry like fuck the next time, I swear I'll cry. Imma crybaby, F3 ! I don't want to see anything bad happen to you, y'know?! Grr. You better take goodcare of yourself, I mean it. You know how much you mean to me, I don't wanna lose you, just like how you don't wanna lose me, understand?! Rawrs. Please for goodness sake uh, takecares and becareful if you wanna do all those things. Because I still wanna see you again, I still wanna TT with you! & many more. Like all those things that you said on msn yesterday, Hehe. I miss all of those things, damn fucking much! Anyway, thanks for the past one week dearest, though it's just one week, it feels like we're together for years. Cause of the way you love, you care. Happy one week! I love you, babyboy. ♥

Nothing beats his love, he's just too loved. ♥

♥ He entered my life, with full of love.



Hello baby, I know you're reading. *pouts.
I only have like, 15mins to finish this blog post? Because you'll fall asleep anytime, and you wanna read this before you fall asleep. Okay, I'm typing like a robot now. Hahahhaa!

Thanks real lots for today, I really really really love slacking out with you. It's seriously damn enjoyable even though it's just like what, merely 2 hours time? Haha. It's okay, at least I get to spend time with you. Travelling all the way down from batok till hougang, seriously it's worth my time. I've already been doing the same thing travelling down for 3 consecutive days straight, I really don't mind. Because you exchange all the journey time with tons of fun, joy and laughter for me, and of course, your greatest love. ♥

I wouldn't forget today, like seriously. We actually found such a unique way of saying "I love you" hur? Haha! You know I know ah, sieh cute please. Now just one sentence would seriously make me laugh and feel your presence, "Baby 我好爱你 oh". HAHAHA. Thanks lah baby, you're seriously one cute lil boy. ♥

Thanks for you countless hugs, it really gave me much warmth today, during that short period of rain. Being in your arms is simply great, comfortable maximum. & you know what, I really wanna feed you water again, I swear. :D Such a fun job to do, ohmy. I'd do it my whole life you know, hehehe. :p I'll do it again the next time I meet you, which is next week. Hehe.

K. Since you're turning in anytime from now, I shall wish you goodnight in advance here! Hehehe. Goodnights baby, sweet dreams. You better have a damn fucking sweet dream tonight, see you in lalaland :p Hehehe. It's 11:11 , you're the only one whom I love fucking much, for my whole life. ♥

I'd give up sugar just for you, Aden. ♥

♥ Sweetest love ever, I love you.



7:30am in the morning, & I'm still wide awake.
Because I just reached home from fishing and prawning together with bro & daddy. Hehe. I had much fun there, I caught a real huge prawn! Was so surprised when I caught it, cause it's really huge lol. I'm heading out at 10am later on, I'm so dead without getting any sleep. Fuck!

Back to the evening, I had a really awesome evening yesterday. Yep, cause I went to meet baby at punggol, like finally get to see him can? One word, awesome! Hehe. First time meet him only, he feed me pocky. How cute can it be, just imagine it! Haha, but only I would know what's the feeling, & I can't explain, because it's so great. So cute of him!♥

Waited for a bus for damn long, but it's okay, because we were having fun while waiting, hahaha! Okay, I know I'm short, you pig. Rawrs. Went to slack around his school area, that's when all the fun begin, I swear. LOL. It all begins with a tickle, okay we're both afraid of tickle, so in which it makes the whole thing much more fun. Because we're seeing who's better at it, how funny. LOL.

Skipped* Next, exploring his iphone's games. K, tap tap revenge. Cause it's my favourite game. Haha! So we challenged. Whoever lose, have to do something. HAHA. Okay, I shall not say it out. Secret, our secret. But I only know it's so freaking fun. Baby, can we do it again? Please say yes, HAHAHAA. Train harder, and we challenge again okiedokie :p

Changed of slacking venue again, void-deck. Was waiting for my dad to come fetch me, thanks baby for staying and accompanying me for more than 1 hour extra when you're supposed to get home. Sorry if I made you got nagged by your mum, whoops. :/

Hehe, had much fun under void-deck too. My cockroach protector, wakaka. He protects me from cockroaches even tho he's afraid of it too, aww. ♥ ! I gotten his hug, and it felt soooo good. You know the feeling? Can't even be described, just loved. ♥

Thanks baby for everything. You're seriously real sweet, real nice. Even though you kept on tickling me and saying me short! LOL. But whatever it is, I'm really happy being with you, I really am. :) When you told me, "I see my forever", I was smiling foolishly. Thanks for making me smile and smile non-stop, love it. I miss you, real lots. See you again soon!♥

Aden Chia, I love the way you are. ♥

♥ He never fails to make me smile.



Wheee, I'm seriously in love with my blog. Especially the kittymao background!♥
Hehehe. But wait, of course I didn't forget someone too, hi AdenChia!♥
I never forget to love you, so don't worry. :p
But I really like kittymao, & I really love you.

Mr AdenChia called me "Mrs Chia" this morning on my facebook wall.
Hahahahahahaha. He might not be cute to you, but he's definitely cute to me.

Anyway, I skipped school again today. I seriously just don't feel like going school.
I don't really know why, but I just know I'm always unhappy in a way somehow. With all those fucked up problems, one of it is definitely from projects. & of course, needa face certain people's irksome fake attitude. You know that feeling of, what the fuck? Did I even offend you or something? Yeah, that feeling. It's okay if you don't like me, like seriously, I don't even like you too. :)

Gonna go meet baby later on, & I've to return him the things I owed him. Wow. You know, he's such a big bully, but he's still such a loving guy. Hahaha! I'm gonna return him, cause he've gotta return me my things too. :D Lala.

K la, byebye. ♥

♥ Happy girl back in action.


Hello dearies, whoever is actually here reading my blog!♥
Cus I've no idea who actually reads my blog duh, silent readers, all no tag! :(

Well well, I'm finally back to blogging once again uh. That's stupid, I know. I always goes MIA from blog whenever I broke down. Hopefully there won't be another time though, the feeling like totally fucked up. Tsk!

I'm back, like I said. But ya, I'm back in real happy mood this time. Yup, no more cryings, no more being emotional, no more suicidal thoughts, no more. Because of someone, who made me threw away all those unhappy memories, unhappy emotions and those crazy suicidal thoughts I had previously. Yes, I really wanna thank that someone.

He's someone who :
1. Never fails to make me happy everyday.
2. Never fails to cheer me up whenever I'm down.
3. Never fails to be there for me whenever I need someone.
4. Never once wanted to give up on me even though I rejected him a few times.
5. Really put in efforts in proving how much he wanted me.
6. Really did everything he could to make me happy.
7. Really made me feel damn fucking touched by things he do & say.
8. Made me know there's still a guy who's willing to wait so long without complains nor finding other target.
9. Made me know that I'm of such importance.
Lastly 10. Made me fell in love with him unknowingly..

After me dragging everything for almost 3 months, making things difficult for him for the past 3 months, wanting him to prove to me with his actions for the past 3 months. Unlike others, keep asking me on HOW to prove without even thinking.

So yup, he did everything willingly, without me saying a single thing on what he has to do. I don't wanna share what he did, because that's suppose to be mine :) He really did ANYTHING & EVERYTHING to make me happy no matter what it takes, what it costs. Afterall that he had done, finally his dream came true, he became the dearest boyfriend of mine on 12th July'11 , 11:04pm. I love you. ♥

Thanks, Aden Chia B.P !♥