Girl ah,
You can don't see them, but you chose to.
I never force you to see it anyway (:
Laughs, just lead your own life if you want and I won't say anything.
You were the one who gave me a chance to do so -.-
Haha, so what if you calls me a bitch before? I dont even bother.

Oh. You not happy?
Come straight to me, don't hide behind and badmouth me (:
Please dont always gossip behind people's back ._.
Cause it's really irritating to others you know.
Come to think of it yourself, how will you feel if I were to do that? :/
Bad isn't it? You wouldn't like it if someone were to gossip about you behind..
Yeah, so please like seriously, don't do that again.. :(

No matter what, I also know you for so fucking long, almost 8years
Can just take it as I know what you're thinking (:
But yeah, frankly speaking, it's the fact that I can't bear to not befriends you..
Cause afterall you were really once close to me (':
I know misunderstanding you had, can be cleared up lah.
But only if you want. I will. (:

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Oh yeah, grats for me.
I've let go of it (:
I'm really happy, truly I am.
Laughs :D

Yup.
Friends always, forever you and they will be!
Normal friends are also called friends (:
Who cares if I ain't close to you all anymore,
Because at least we're still friends, better tham strangers.
Hahahahahhs, there's always a way when there's a will (:
So anyway, friends (Y) !

Ciaos.

`I realised I don't need it, I'm happy now :D

♥ I always failed in the game called, Love.


HELLO.

I don't like to see you being that way, because it just breaks my heart even more.
I'll even be more heartache and upset when I sees you being so pessimistic.
You know truly well I'll always be there for you no matter what it takes.
Even though we aren't together any longer, I'll definitely still be there.
Even if the whole world hates you, I'll still be the one loving you still.
Even if the whole world pulls you down, I'll still be the one getting you back up.
Even if the whole world doesn't care about you, I'll still be the one caring always.
Just remember, there'll always be that someone behind secretly supporting you aye (:

Sighs.
Yesterday really such a torturing day can.
By right I already somehow woke up in the morning 8am plus, though I slept at 3, 4am..
But I'm really so reluctant to get myself awake.
& so I slept back in, till I woke up and check time on my phone and saw, 11:11am.
It just makes me sighs the first thing I saw it, like really a huge sigh to myself.
& yeah, I forced myself to sleep back again, till again, 1:11pm. It's like wtf ):
I don't know why I kept on seeing that few numbers, particular time. 11:11 / 1:11 ..
Seriously, I ain't joking, but really the fact that I kept on seeing them nowadays.
Yeah so, I sighed to myself again, & went back to sleep, again..
So end up, I slept till 2pm, finally decided to wake up.

The reason why I kept on forcing myself to sleep & not wake up,
is because I seriously just wants to escape from reality ):
I don't wish to face today alone, it's really a heart-wrenching truth,
that I've to face and get pass today alone, myself, instead of with you.
Sighs.

Ciaos.

`I miss you, seriously.

♥ I may not be perfect, but I'm always me.


HELLO.

I was supposed to love today! ):
But I've no choice but to hate today now, because it's the first of August.
Supposingly it marks the first month of us for me, however, it just marks nothing now.
I'm still trying to let go.. Really..
Jiayou Rebecca, you can do it! )':

Everyone been telling me this particular sentence :
Don't give up the whole forest because of one single tree.

Yeah, this is always the sentence I told all my friends when they broke up too.
But it's really hard to tell myself this sentence when I'm the one facing it -.-
Like I said, easier said than done.
Because I put in 100% effort & love into this relationship, I treasure it so badly.

If not I'll always get this sentence too :
He's not worth your tears babe, don't shed any more tears for him. Cheerup!

Oh. I won't say he's not worth my tears, neither will I say he's worth.
Because he's worth my love ONCE, perhaps that's good enough for me.
I might have already lost him, but he'll always be etched in my mind.
But no worries, I'll keep telling myself not to cry for him anymore (':
I don't know how many litres of water did I actually cried out already.
Gotta start replenish them back, if not I might get dehydration :/
Loss of water, holy.

Oh wells, anyway!!!!
YOG holidays are coming, which means my Shanghai trip is also coming.
Fuck leh, I don't feel like going. Lol -.-
But classmates keep ask me go, even my mummy asked me go too.
But, I'm going anyway (:
It's a 5D4N trip, most probably on the 20th to 24th of August.
& irritating thing is, I've my O level english oral the next day, 25th August.
Laughs, how stressful life can get! :/

Ok la, If i'm not wrong,
O levels are like, 87 days away from me.
WHAT THE FUCK ):
Saddening truth.

Ok, I've no mood to blog on lol..
Or rather, I don't know what to blog further on.
Will update again k!
Ciaos.

`Love is just like a game, don't you realise?