♥ It melts my heart.

Hello (:

Just a random update.
That the cake as a present I gave to my elderbrother on his birthday, 29 Oct.
It's 100% handmade, with no mixer help. So tiring I swear :o
But outcome, still can make it lah hor.
Laughs. It's all the thoughts that counts anyway (:

Was down with a slight fever this morning, and didn't turn up for school.
Oh wells. Missed my demo lesson again~
Tomorrow practical, no idea baking what :x
Hahhaha. But as long as it's practical lesson, I'd love it :D

Mhm. Started mapling since 2 days ago.
Yes, I finally leveled my priest to level 71 -.-
Thanks to not having comp the other time, so I quit and quit for times.
At last, I leveled :D Hoho.
Can't wait to add holy symbol, omgggee.
Been playing rather much lately, exams are over what :P
Hehehe.

Alrights, that's all for today.
Back again soon :P

Ciaos.

`I've a significant question with no answer to it.

`♥ Happy 18th Birthday, JasmineTay.




Hello (:

Went to school today, finally after getting 2 weeks off from school due to O's.
Really miss school a lot, damn lot.

PE in the morning, completed my Napfa 5 Stations.
Holyyy, everything deproved sia, sadded.

Situp : 33 times.
Standing Board Jump : 174cm.
Shutter Run : 11secs.
Sit and Reach : 36cm.
Inclined Pull-ups : 39 times.

Ah, indeed I'm not really happy with these though :/
Lols. But oh wells, can't redo all these.
I wants to re-run my napfa 2.4km run ! :O
3 weeks ago ran, 17mins plus, totally suck, lol.
Thanks to visiting the toilet in the midst of running -.-

Initially wanted to run 2.4 today, I tried, after 1 round under the sun,
I cmi, end up no choice gotta tell teacher I try again next week :/
So end up, I continue running 2 more rounds for fun, exercise!
Hehehe. But just right after 3rd round ended, I felt so damn dizzy~
Crap leys, almost black out again. -.-

Skipped*
Went to spam water, rest awhile, & played badminton with others. (:
Been long since I last played badminton aaah~ Funfun :D
Tired like mad please.

Lifeskills lesson, talked about love marriage and etc.
Totally spoils my mood, to the very fucking max.
Just because it simply reminds me of tons and tons of things. Sighs -.-
So yeah, turned face to the back, and not listen to teacher.
Doing my own things, playing my own phone games.
Just trying to distract myself.
Whatmore, I doubt I even did manage to forget him at all.
Seriously, it's taking more time than what I expected.. -.-
Oks, oh wells.

Ended school at 11am, trained to cck lot one.
They had lunch, and we went up to the open-space.
Pop Jasmine a surprise with that little cake, she almost cried? Hah (Y).
Yups, sang song, made wishes, and etc.
Gave her the birthday present, a damn huge hello kitty.
Awww, I love hello kitty :O ! So darn cute ttfm! :D Heheheh.
Yup so, slacked there for awhile, and off we go.
Went around window shopping and etc.
Once again, happy birthday Jasmine, may all her wishes come true! (:

Time to go, bid goodbye.
I really hate bidding goodbye to people whom I doesn't wants to bid goodbye to.. :/
Looking at him, but I still gotta bid goodbye. Oh wells.
I'm really so confused oks. Maybe or perhaps,
I really still loves him, oh mys god.

K, end here.
Ciaos.

`It's so hard. But loving you is just so easy, and simple, 3 words.

♥ I'm finally back from MIA-ing.

Oh, it has been 2 long months since I last updated my blog.
Yes, I went on a MIA trip to somewhere peaceful :/
But anyway, I'm fine now though (:
Everything has ended, yes everything.
I hope I really did gave up on everything, cause I ain't sure myself either.
Oh wells, forget it (:

& yes yes.
O levels has officially ended on Friday!
I'm so freeeeeeeeeeeeeeee from exams, happy die~
No more maths, no more science ~
Laughs, finally can have more fun :D

Oks, just be a short post today.
Since it's the first day I came back @.@ !
I'm tired, even after waking up in the noon.

Ohhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh,
I'm thinking of someone, I don't know why.
Heh.

Ciaos.

`He's the one who made me smile, he's also the one who made me cry. I don't need it no more. (:

Hello wello,

I finally, at last after so long, decided to log-in to my blogger account.
Sorry for not replying to all those tags and not blogging.
Wasn't really in the right state of mind for the past one whole month.
Yeah, breaking up with boyfriend was never a good thing.
It'll just directly breaks me down, to the maximum.
Even resorting to being damn emotional and shuts me off from everything.

Yep, just because of such huge attack,
I stopped going to my night class, for a month.
Laughs. That's real dumb, I know.

Anyway, I ain't feeling any where better even till now.
Everyday I've to face the guy I once loved so deeply with.
The guy I once said so many times of "I love you" to.
It's really a awkward feeling! :(

I'm trying so fucking hard to go forget about everything.
It's like asking me to end my own life, needs so much courage.
Sighs, really really difficult to let go.

I still don't know why, why I can't even forget him even till now.
Like seriously, I've no idea at all.
Always been telling myself to forget about him, but end up I always fail to do so.
Sometimes really pissed off with myself.

I know I'm letting my friends down by doing so.
But please forgive me, I'm really having a hard time to control my own feelings, mind and heart.
Whenever I'm at school, I will think of him, because school been the place I know him.
Whenever I'm at home, I will think of him, because I can never get texts from him.
Whenever I'm in mrt, I will think of him, because mrt was the place where I get to hug him so tightly.
Whenever I'm on bus, I will think of him, because bus was the place where he insists I put on safety belt.
Whenever I'm at orchard, I will think of him, because it's the place where we both walked around for 8hours.
Whenever I'm in cinema, I will think of him, because I miss the moment in there with him.
Whenever I'm on the street, I will think of him, because I will never fail to see the word Eunos.
Whenever I'm using the comp, I will think of him, because of facebook.
Whenever I'm using facebook, I will think of him, because we used to play interviews.
There's many more.. I can never finish listing them out.
Just in conclusion, whatever I do, wherever I go, I will just thinks of him.

Please, just help me get out of this illusion.
I'm really suffering, or maybe not suffering.
Just that, being stucked in the world full of him.
I don't know how to explain the feeling.
Sometimes it's nice, sometimes it's terrible.

Oh wells.
Anyway, exams just finished yesterday.
Effective communication paper - Easy peasy.
Introduction to baking science paper - Difficult like fuck.
Pastry basics paper - Still manageable.
Cake mixing and baking paper - Manageable, only dies on one question.

Well, I did studied for this exam.
I really hope I could pass them all.
Cause I definitely have no interest in retaking any of the module at all.

Talking abour retaking, I'm really regretting on retaking my O levels.
Practically a waste of time, fuck it.
I'm already giving up on them, Maths & Science.
Only pinning hopes on English, Chinese & Combine Humanities.
Gonna study for them the next few weeks.
Fuck, O levels are like less than a month's time.
Sighs. Jiayou.

Alrights.
I shall stop here, cause I'm using phone to blog.
Blogging at a basketball court at yewtee, even nice.
Hahaha. Heading to grandma house for lantern later on (;
Shall go enjoy burning of candles and playing of fire. Hehe.
Tags will be replied soon, I promise, when I use a comp to visits mu blog.
Goodnights, Goodbye. <:

Girl ah,
You can don't see them, but you chose to.
I never force you to see it anyway (:
Laughs, just lead your own life if you want and I won't say anything.
You were the one who gave me a chance to do so -.-
Haha, so what if you calls me a bitch before? I dont even bother.

Oh. You not happy?
Come straight to me, don't hide behind and badmouth me (:
Please dont always gossip behind people's back ._.
Cause it's really irritating to others you know.
Come to think of it yourself, how will you feel if I were to do that? :/
Bad isn't it? You wouldn't like it if someone were to gossip about you behind..
Yeah, so please like seriously, don't do that again.. :(

No matter what, I also know you for so fucking long, almost 8years
Can just take it as I know what you're thinking (:
But yeah, frankly speaking, it's the fact that I can't bear to not befriends you..
Cause afterall you were really once close to me (':
I know misunderstanding you had, can be cleared up lah.
But only if you want. I will. (:

---

Oh yeah, grats for me.
I've let go of it (:
I'm really happy, truly I am.
Laughs :D

Yup.
Friends always, forever you and they will be!
Normal friends are also called friends (:
Who cares if I ain't close to you all anymore,
Because at least we're still friends, better tham strangers.
Hahahahahhs, there's always a way when there's a will (:
So anyway, friends (Y) !

Ciaos.

`I realised I don't need it, I'm happy now :D

♥ I always failed in the game called, Love.


HELLO.

I don't like to see you being that way, because it just breaks my heart even more.
I'll even be more heartache and upset when I sees you being so pessimistic.
You know truly well I'll always be there for you no matter what it takes.
Even though we aren't together any longer, I'll definitely still be there.
Even if the whole world hates you, I'll still be the one loving you still.
Even if the whole world pulls you down, I'll still be the one getting you back up.
Even if the whole world doesn't care about you, I'll still be the one caring always.
Just remember, there'll always be that someone behind secretly supporting you aye (:

Sighs.
Yesterday really such a torturing day can.
By right I already somehow woke up in the morning 8am plus, though I slept at 3, 4am..
But I'm really so reluctant to get myself awake.
& so I slept back in, till I woke up and check time on my phone and saw, 11:11am.
It just makes me sighs the first thing I saw it, like really a huge sigh to myself.
& yeah, I forced myself to sleep back again, till again, 1:11pm. It's like wtf ):
I don't know why I kept on seeing that few numbers, particular time. 11:11 / 1:11 ..
Seriously, I ain't joking, but really the fact that I kept on seeing them nowadays.
Yeah so, I sighed to myself again, & went back to sleep, again..
So end up, I slept till 2pm, finally decided to wake up.

The reason why I kept on forcing myself to sleep & not wake up,
is because I seriously just wants to escape from reality ):
I don't wish to face today alone, it's really a heart-wrenching truth,
that I've to face and get pass today alone, myself, instead of with you.
Sighs.

Ciaos.

`I miss you, seriously.

♥ I may not be perfect, but I'm always me.


HELLO.

I was supposed to love today! ):
But I've no choice but to hate today now, because it's the first of August.
Supposingly it marks the first month of us for me, however, it just marks nothing now.
I'm still trying to let go.. Really..
Jiayou Rebecca, you can do it! )':

Everyone been telling me this particular sentence :
Don't give up the whole forest because of one single tree.

Yeah, this is always the sentence I told all my friends when they broke up too.
But it's really hard to tell myself this sentence when I'm the one facing it -.-
Like I said, easier said than done.
Because I put in 100% effort & love into this relationship, I treasure it so badly.

If not I'll always get this sentence too :
He's not worth your tears babe, don't shed any more tears for him. Cheerup!

Oh. I won't say he's not worth my tears, neither will I say he's worth.
Because he's worth my love ONCE, perhaps that's good enough for me.
I might have already lost him, but he'll always be etched in my mind.
But no worries, I'll keep telling myself not to cry for him anymore (':
I don't know how many litres of water did I actually cried out already.
Gotta start replenish them back, if not I might get dehydration :/
Loss of water, holy.

Oh wells, anyway!!!!
YOG holidays are coming, which means my Shanghai trip is also coming.
Fuck leh, I don't feel like going. Lol -.-
But classmates keep ask me go, even my mummy asked me go too.
But, I'm going anyway (:
It's a 5D4N trip, most probably on the 20th to 24th of August.
& irritating thing is, I've my O level english oral the next day, 25th August.
Laughs, how stressful life can get! :/

Ok la, If i'm not wrong,
O levels are like, 87 days away from me.
WHAT THE FUCK ):
Saddening truth.

Ok, I've no mood to blog on lol..
Or rather, I don't know what to blog further on.
Will update again k!
Ciaos.

`Love is just like a game, don't you realise?

♥ Maybe it's all just an illusion, or is it real?


HELLO.

I'm back blogging.
Yaaa, fuck it, when I always suddenly remember tomorrow is the 1st.
It was supposed to be such a joyful occasion for me to spend out,
but whatever it is, there's none now.
& all I could do tomorrow is, stay home waste time & think the hell outta my brain.

Hunger strike? Sorry, no.
I just doesn't have that appetite to even eat..
Since Monday night that hurting text, I haven't been eating till now.
Smart eh. I actually survived without eating for 4-5 days already.
Even if I ate, I'll vomit everything out, so it's like, no difference from eating.
Thanks to you, I'm having a real hard time.
Yet you can really pretend nothing had happened before.. (':
Neverminds then.

So afterall, whatever I've done are just, rubbish.
Everything could be just thrown away like that, without a sign on sadness.
Everyone wants us to be back together, but I know it's impossible,
even if I were to give in much more, it'll still be impossible.
& only till then, I realised, my over-loving you was also wrong.
If I were to not put in love in the first place, how would you feel? Idk.
But the fact is, I actually did put in love, but to you, it's over-love.
Oh wells, maybe I'm wrong about it then? Yaa.

Everyone wants me to cheerup & get you out of my mind.
Easier said than done. You can be cheerful back so easily, get me out so easily,
but sorry, I can't. Because you just mean too much to me right in the beginning.
But what to do when I mean just another girl in your life..
Nevermind about it.

Like I said, all I want is you to be happy, that's what I'm wishing for.
But what to do when I'm in such heartache when I see you talking so lovely to others.
But all those aren't even to me, even though I'm just a friend now. I don't even get.
Yeah indeed I'm really contradicting myself, I admit it though.

Just like in school, I wants to see you so much.
But at the same time, I don't want to see you so much too.
I wants to see you because I'm still loving you so deeply.
I don't want to see you because I'm really trying to forget you.
Whenever I sees you, my heart will get that aching feeling telling me, I love you still.
But whenever I don't sees you, my heart will give me that feeling of,
I wants to see you so badly that it's bleeding non-stop, I miss you.

& for your information,
there are like SOME GODDAMN THINGS in between that happened when we're together.
Only until we broke up, till tuesday / wednesday, then I found out..
You just doesn't know about it, you know?
Maybe I shouldn't tell you, in case anything happens again.
I don't know what will you think if I were to tell you what really happened.
Maybe you'll say I'm making up stories, or maybe you'll believe me.
I really don't know, & I really don't dare to risk it.
But even if I were to tell you, I doubt it'll make any changes.
So I guess I just gotta keep everything to myself, & suffer myself knowing the truth.
Perhaps you could say, I would rather hurt myself than to hurt you. Yes I do.

Laughs. Forget it (:
I'll never forget how sweet we used to be, causing others to get diabetes.
I'll never forget how I always goes to your house and have fun laughing.
I'll never forget how we started off loving each other.
I'll never forget how we used to text each other even though we're just beside.
I'll never forget how you hugged me so tightly even when we're in public.
I'll never forget how you gave me goodbye kiss everytime you sends me home.
I'll never forget how you used to chased the mrt after me and the people looking.
I'll never forget how you used to send me sweet goodmorning & goodnight texts.
I'll never forget how you always succeed in making me smile no matter what.
I'll never forget how you used to sweetly say iloveyou to me.
I'll never forget how you cares for me initially.
I'll never forget how we used to spend our own private time together happily.
I'll never forget much more more things, it can never be done saying it all out..
& I'll never forget how we broke up just like this, for no reason.

I shall just take it as, you still loves me.
Just that you needs some space for yourself, that's why you wanted to end this.
I wanted to patch back up with you, but I doubt I'll ever get the chance.
I wanted to wait for you, but you gave me that certain answer that I've no chance.
But, sorry to say, I still loves you, as deeply as I first said I love you.
My love for you hasn't fade off a single bit at all since the first day I love you.
& it'll just take a long long time for me to make it fade I guess (:
Lester, I love you damn deeply still.

Sighs, I'm really having a hard time letting my days pass.
Family things, School things, Studies things and relationship things.
I'm really gonna break down real soon, I'm serious.
One day I might just go MIA again, by then, don't find me, cause I'm nowhere.

Well anyway.
I've a goddamn hole or can say a crack, INSIDE my mouth D:
What the fuck ok, because it's fucking pain I swear -.-
Nnb, I can't even eat, can't even talk nicely, nor can I swallow my saliva at ease.
Holy cowwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwww ! ):

Oks, I shall try to blog again tomorrow.
I FUCKING NOT LOOKING FORWARD FOR TOMORROW TO COME.
I DON'T WANT TO STAY HOME, I SWEAR I'LL EMO AT HOME TILL I DIES.
FUCKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKK ):

Off to jio people go out!
Ciaos.

`If only you realise how much you mean to me, & know the reason why I care so much. Because I love you.

EEEEEEE, FUCK YOU FUCK YOU FUCK YOU LAH CCB! -.-
FOUND OUT SOMETHING SO FUCKING IRRITATING SIAL.
KNN. YOU THINK YOU ZAI ARH?
CAN LIKE THAT FRAME PEOPLE UP ONE OR NOT?!
PURPOSELY TELL THAT PERSON SOMETHING WHICH YOU SHOULDN'T -.-
HOLY CRAP, FUCK YOU ):

NOW I KNOW WHY THAT TIME THAT THING HAPPEN SIA -.-
JIDANNNN, SO IT'S YOU WHO'S BEHIND IT -.- ?
NICE ONE! GOODJOB SIA, I HATE YOU FOR SETTING ME UP THAT WAY ):
HUMPHS.

--

OK ANYWAY, FOR YOUR INFORMATION.
I BROKE UP, I BROKE UP ALREADY OK?
DON'T KEEP ASK LAH FUCK, SAD YOU KNOW! BUT THAT'S PREVIOUSLY, OR PERHAPS I AM STILL LAH ):
YA, SO I'M BACK TO SINGLE AGAINNNN NOW! ):
NEVERMINDS, SIGHS.

WHOEVER OUT THERE WANT BE HAPPY OVER MY BROKE UP, GO AHEAD.
COS I CAN TELL YOU NOW, I DON'T CARE IF YOU'RE HAPPY (:
BECAUSE HE'S HAPPY NOW, SO I'M HAPPY FOR HIM TOO (:
TOO BAD, I LOVE HIM, SO I GONNA TRYYYYY TO LET GO AND TRYYYYY NOT BE UPSET (':
YES, I LOVE HIM, 100% FOR SURE TRULY DEEPLY SINCERELY.
:D

HE'S A GOOD GUY, I'M A BAD GIRL. (:
THANKS HIM SO MUCH FOR ALL THE SWEET LOVELY MEMORIES.
THANKS HIM SO MUCH FOR ALL HIS LOVE, CARE & CONCERN GIVEN.
THANKS HIM SO MUCH FOR ALL HIS TOLERANCE, UNDERSTANDING & PATIENCE.
THANKS HIM SO MUCH FOR LETTING ME LOVE-D HIM DEEPLY ONCE & FOR ALL.
I'M CONTENTED ENOUGH! :D

FIND A BETTER GIRL LAH K, I WILL TRY TO GIVE UP K (:
BUT TIME NEEDED TO DO SO COMPLETELY, SORRY!
AS YOU KNOW, FORGETTING SOMEONE DEAR ISN'T AN EASY TASK (:
YUP, TIME TIME K.

I'LL BE HAPPY AS LONG AS YOU'RE HAPPY LAH, COS I LOVE YOU (:
AS SIMPLE AS THAT K, NOTHING ELSE.

HEHEHE.
IT'S BETTER TO BE LOVED AND LOST,
THAN TO HAVE NEVER LOVE BEFORE!

I ALWAYS REMEMBER THIS LINE! :D

`I'm not what you think, bitch. I proved you wrong already :D

♥ There's always forever, when there's you & me.


HELLO!

Didn't managed to come update yesterday, cause lappy isn't around.
It's around today, so I'm here to update since I've the chance to do so!

Mhm, I don't really like yesterday!
Because someone made me so upset, but I'm okay after awhile anyway, hahaha!
Being such a silly girl, waited for that lovely boy of hers for hours alone.
Even though knowing she'll be bored to death being alone,
& knowing she's having serious menses cramp that's killing her,
& knowing it'll definitely be hours of waiting,
she still insisted on waiting for him instead of going back home and rest.
Hahahhaah! But neverminds, it's still a time worth spending,
even though somethinggggg happened which made me so heartpain ahhhh!
Because I gets to at least see him (:

But he being so nice, cheered me up and made me smiled in text (:
Thanks ah baby, you're really sweet when you're so nice.
Sorry for whatever I did recently, really.
I know I'm always quiet all the time, because I really am like this.
Even if I'm with my secondary school mates, I'm this quiet too.
I don't really know how to get as high as the others do eh, seriously.
Blah blah blah. But you also know the reason to this anyway.
Yaaaaa, really sorry oks. I know you're upset because of this, eek.
Oh. Sorrrrrrrrrrrrrrry (':

Anyway, like I said, my private time with you are getting lesser & lesser,
as compared to last time when we first started off of course.
Because of school, ccas, going out & stuffs. Sighs, saddening you know! :/

Haha! But I don't careeeee, you promised me you'll find time for meeeee more again!!
Rawrrrs, I miss being alone with you, like SERIOUSLYYYYY you know. Tsk tsk.
Yaaaa hor, you ah you, better don't say you don't know what's up next Sunday again!
LOL, kill you lehs. I yesterday say so much, then finally you can tell me, haiyoyo.
You forget one more time then you know, tsk! :D
&&, I already booked you next Sunday, & you're really mine on that day oks! :P
Hehehehe. Anyway, thanks baby (:


Hohoho, isn't this scenery niceeeee? :D
Used baby's camera take one mah, of course nice. HAHAH.
I love sunset view, it's always so beautiful (:
Of course not forgetting sunrise too, it's just as beautiful.
Babbbbbbby, let's go watch sunrise/sunset one day oks, yayyyy :D
Hehehe. ♥

Mhms. Anyway.
Went back to secondary school once again, to attend the Blood Donation Drive 2010.
BUT wait, I must stress on this point : I NEVER GODDAMN DONATED ANY BLOOD K !
I'm only there to give moral support to friends whom donated (:
Gah. Sorry to say, not that I've no heart and no sympathy towards people who needs,
but I seriously IS effing afraid of needles -.-
& also not forgetting, I've low blood eh, may faint anytime if I donate lol.
I think if I were to donate, I'll faint even before the needle is poked x;
That tube-like needle, is friggin THICK, I'm so disgusted by it when I saw it O:
I walked away so quickly the moment the nurse gonna inject, eeew.
Cause that gush of eerie & painful feeling just struck me so suddenly :/
I doubt I'll want to go back for this the next year eh.
Hahahah suck. I'm so timid & noob. Omgoshhh ):

Only out for 4hours, reached home @ 7pm plus just now (:
Okkkkk, I'm going prawning tomorrow, with group of friends & baby.
Oh wells. It been real long since the last time I went prawning eh o.o
Tomorrow go also is go accompany someone lor, tsk tsk.
Hope I'll have fun tomorrow, hehe (:
Eh baby, I miss you lah pigggggy! Lalala :D

`To the world you might be one person, but to me, you're the world (:

♥ Your smiles means a lot to me, cause it's just so sweet.


HELLO!

Ohhohoho, back again.
First thing : I randomly burst out in tears in class today.
How dumb of me to do so, just because I really couldn't control my tears ):

Thanks baby, for being there the FIRST MINUTE when he found out I'm crying.
& for trying to comfort me and trying to cheer me up (':
I feels so much better, cause I know you're always there for me no matter what.
Really, I feels so loved!
Thanks dearest, you're always the one who treats me that good.
Sometimes I do feels like dropping the tears of joy when you're so good to me x;
Maybe I might really just have the tears of joy one day, right infront of you! :/
Hehe. Seriously, I love you so much so much ! :D

Grr anyway, baby please don't mention about the reason why to anyone oks? Sighs.
I don't wish others to know, only you.
I'm so sorry, I guess I made you worried & upset today! :/

Hur hur. Yeahhh, regarding what I told you about what you did aaahhh...
Blah blah, stop saying sorry to me already please.
You know i'll still love you right! :3
You know what you'll have to do if I caught you saying sorry again ohs :D
I mean it okay! Hehehehe :D


Yep, went out with this lovely "AngMoh" bestfriend of mine, CelesteChin!
I miss her so freaking much, because the last time I saw was I don't know when!
She left for studies at America since sec 2 year end ):
One year only managed to come back once or sometimes none, sad.
She's such a good friend of mine, can say she's another best sister of mine too!
Yep, so hang out yesterday, together with Melanie & Weiting.
She bought me my favourite babytigger from minitoon, so sweet of her (':
I love that babytigger so much, that's the 3rd babytigger i'm craving for long!
All types of babytigger in minitoon, i'm after them! Omg O:
Hms, so dine at KFC, chit-chatted and stuffs, and went to westmall (:
Went toshop around and blahblah. Yep late already, so Melanie & Weiting went off.
I stayed to accompany her till her friend came to fetch her.
While waiting, we talked about lots of past years stuffs, damn cool (:
She brought back all those lovely memories I had with her during secondary school.
Oh mys, I'll surely miss her again after she leave on the 28th this month.
Haiyo! Do come back soon please, go out againnnn and start talking everything! (:
Takecare of yourself while you're in America, for the don't know how many time!
Yaaa, loveyou sister! (:

Alrights, guess I shall go off.
Cause I'm tired and sleepy already, & I've practical tomorrow!
Gonna making fruit cake, aaaahhhh, there comes another cake I don't eat again lol!
Oh wells, let's do it anyway, hope it'll turn out nice please (:

Mmhms.
I gotta accompany someone so special to sleep too, HAHAH.
If not someone will be so lonely in lala land right, hehehe.
No worries, I'm here to join you! Yay :D
Shall reply tags before I off blogger and jumpes up to bed and sleep (:

TAG REPLIES.

Kaili : Hahah, yeah. Must jiayou k! I'm also stress x.x lol. All the best!
Nicola : Lol. Welcome luhs! (: Hahah. Loveyoutoo, ;mua .
Zenri : Hey sister, relink-ed! (: Loves.
Melanie : LOL. Hohoho. Aiyah, you anyhowwww. Yesterday also forget bring cam, nice!
Passerby : Hey there. 18 this year!
Sophia : Yeah luh, seeyou soon! How come timetable screwed leh? Late end school? :/

Ciaos.

`I love you for the way you are, because it's you (:

♥ Your presence means happiness to me.



HELLO!

Just to mention,
I've been rather in superbly good mood lately.
Thanks to my dearest boyfr, he's always making me smileeeee!
Hehehehe! You've always been the reason to my smile (:
I hope you do smile too, stop sighing for no reason ahhhh, I smack you leh!
Teehees, iloveyou! Rawrrrs :3


Ehhhh baby, does this picture looks familiar to you? :D
Mhms, maybe you won't know, I shall tell you then.
Does the one on the left looks like you? Of course it is!
You know why? I doubt you know, or maybe you do. Hehe
This picture just shows exactly the same thing as what we did eh!
Whenever I kissed you suddenly without you realising,
you would definitely give me that expression of > O.O or O: !
Just because you didn't expect me doing so, so you got a shock from it. Lalala.
Wuahahahah, remember now remember now? :P
Hehehehehe, i'm so bad. *Ops x;


Ahhhhhh, MelanieTay!
I miss going out to cam-whore with you like some crazy girls.
It's so fun to spam our cameras with 400photos just in a day of less than 10hours.
Holy crap, that's our hobby! :D
But it been long since we last went out to cam-whore like siao eh.
Make a day we go out to camwhore again? Soon soon.
Next week or during your birthday? :O
Oh yeah, I didn't forget your birthday okay! (:
Hahahaha. Let me know if you're free the next week or the next next week!
I'll make time to go out with you, but please ah, choose tuesday to thursday safer!
Hehe, lovelove! :D

Alrights, guess I shall go off now since I've no idea what to blog on further.
Mhms, tomorrow's Mondayyyyyyyy!
Upset because need to wake up early again, & also I've roleplay tomorrow! ):
Happy because I gets to see baby again after 3days of not seeing him! (:
Heheheheh. We're going swimmming @ JE swimming complex, yay!
*HappyHappyHappy* cause I gets to spend time with baby again :D

TAG REPLIES.

Joey : Yeah, hehe. Always @ lot one :D Hmm, that dress ah, bought @ bugis street! (:
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Sophia : Lol, really? I didn't know x; Heheh, yeah luhs. MUST see you in school! :D

Ciaos.

`The way you make my smile is the reason you're in my heart (:

HELLO!

At last here to update again, faints.
School's been somehow good recently bah, I suppose so.
Went home quite late almost everyday, but it's all worthwhile though.
I don't really know what to blog about anyway.
Oh wells.

Mhmm. Boyfr ah boyfr!
Thanks for being there for me always, be it mentally or physically.
You always never fails to make me smile (:
You know you mean everything to me ever since I started loving you.
Thanks for granting my wish of being with you after so long x;
I don't know if i'll make a good girlfr of yours, but i'll try my very best oks.
But i know, I now have a very nice & caring boyfr :D
I'll treasure and cherish the love you gave to me, it'll always be kept in my heart.
Just like your chambers in heart, you'll always live in all, remember dino? Hehe :P
You're always that loving and sweet to me, made me so happppppy :D
Hehe. It's already the sixteenth day since 1st July (:
Though you're not my first, but I definitely want you to be my last.
You know how much I cares for you, how much I needs you, how much I love you.
I love you with all my heart, deep down truly. I'll never regret being with you (:
I wants you to be mine forever, will you?
I love you. ♥

`Baby, thanks for everything (:

Hello Wello! (:

Phone update again! I wished I could upload photo! Gosh ):
Sadly, there's no such program as uploading photos to blogger with phone lol.

Hms, here to blog about the bbq tonning @ ecp on 29th! (:
I'll just cut them short and sweet, cause I also don't really know what to blog about!

Woke up like quite early, 1130am.
Texted ♥ all the way after I woke up (:
Bathed and prepared, just when I'm going to leave house..
Mummy called, and asked me to cook porridge for littlebro before I leave.
Littlebro was suppose to tell me beforehand, but he forgot right after he hung up the phone with mummy previously!
And no choice, I've to cook for him despite being late because he's sick.
Yaaa, so after cooking, I rushed out of house to take mrt x.x
And so obviously, I was like damn late, almost late for an hour ~ Lala, sorry.

Trained down to Eunos with mingxi. Bused to ♥'s house.
Yaa, helped to carry all the stuffs do to carpark and ♥'s daddy drove us there to out bbq pit (:
Unpacked everything and started the fire while waiting for the others to reach (:

-Skipped Skipped Skipped-

Ate and ate, so much that I'm so full. Lols.
Went to sit near the sea area together with a bunch of guys including ♥ , Putra, Hamka, Hairul and Shaun.
Down there enjoying the cooling sea breeze while listening to them talking (:
Like so relaxing, thanks to the sea breeze. So shiok!
But of course not forgetting having the company of ♥ sitting beside! (:

After that, went back to bbq awhile while waiting for bikes.
I played around with the extra bike there, and ♥ came chasing after me.
But, thanks to jam-brake, he fall so badly ):
Dey, heartpain you know! Got yourself so freaking many bruises yet you still lied to me! O:
(Better takecare of yourself! Apply med med med okkk!)

Until around 2am plus, the other group back and our turns to cycle (:
Cycled together with ♥ , Putra, Hamka and Hairul.
Cycled all the way from the end to the head of ecp, 7-11 area.
Slacked awhile there for air-con and off we go.

Played something fun while cycling. Hms.
Cycled fast fast and must brake together in a striaght row (:
But after don't know how many tries, we still failed x;
HAHAH, all cannot coordinate! Haiyoyo.
Went to the jetty to slack just for awhile and went off (:

Next, the 4 guys being curious and we went into the skate park to play.
First, Hamka fell hard while playing trying to do stunts. Lols.
Next when I was trying to stop and park my bike, I fell out of clumsiness -.-
Damn funny which i can't stop laughing at myself even after I fell and sit on the ground lol!
My butt hurts so much, but I still continue on laughing x;
HAHAH. But, it was such a funny fall lah, so doesnt matter ~ :D

After playing there awhile, time to go, cycle back.
Decided to cycle further when we're halfway back, and so we did.
Cycled pass a drain.... and yaaaa, I saw "something" there eh..... !
Great, first time in my life I ever saw that kinda thing :/
Lols, scared of course is will. But, I managed to calm myself down though.
Keep telling myself nothing will happen because I didn't go disturb, so they won't come distub me then :/
But the image of ut been stucked in my head, only until yesterday night then it's somehow gone, lols.
Haahah, but neverminds ah, glad that I already gotten over it. (:
Feels better after telling my parents about it, cos my daddy heard before "those stuffs". Lols.

Yups yups, cycled back to our pit. By cycling through a dark forest which is wet like wow ._.
Omg leh, thats really the boldest thing I ever done despite already being so afraid right after seeing that lol.
Funny me, but I'm okay already lah! (:
Reached bbq pit, already 4am plus plus.

-Skipped Skipped Skipped-
Packed up, changed and off we go.
Cab to mac, and calculated the money, and off everyone goes.
Didn't agree to leave together with the other group though I'm heading the same way as all of them.
Cause didn't want to leave ♥ carrying all the stuffs back alone when he's so effing tired :/
Yaa so, decided to accompany him then!

Again, cab to ♥'s house.
Left everything at his house and, ♥ and Mingxi swam awhile before leaving.
♥ sent me to bus-stop with his wet pants lol!
Off I go, trained back to batok with a "Rudolf Red-Nose" x;
HAHAHAH, only you know what I mean! Lala.

Had a great day tonning with them all (:
Surely it'ssuch an unforgettable night! Heh.
Just abit of unhappiness at sometimes, blahblah.
Shh, only I know what! (:
You're smart if you know then, haha! (:

Took exactly an hour to blog this post! Lols, so long lah gosh.
Okkkks, that's all for the bbq tonning event (:
Really had funnnnn. But it's always not enough when it's spent with you.
Because time with you just seems to pass so superbly fast!
It's never enough (:

Aye, you're just the sweetest and loveliest ! I love you boy (:

Hello earthling!

I'm currently trying to update abit with my phone.
Ya, so it's kinda real hard ah! Tsk.
Okays, so sorry I haven't been updating my blog for like, almost a month's time! ):
Sobs. Not that I doesn't want, but just, my desktop broke down again, that explains why! ):
Saddening right! Sighs. I wants a laptop of my own so desperately!! O:

Yeah, mmhnms.
School holidays started since like, 9th of june.
But holidays are just so-so for me ah, nothing much!
Because I prefer having school instead!
At least I wouldn't be so bored at home rotting away.
Now, holidays are ending in exactly a week time! :D
Happy happy! Can go back school again!
I miss my classmates (:

This time, will be in cck campus. Which is like, kinda irritating ah.
Cause the campus is really considered big for me, because I never had a school bigger than that lah.
Yeah, batok sec already can make me die just by walking from a corner to another. Lol.
Whatmore now is this cck campus, x3 / x4 times of batok sec -.- .
Faints. But, I loves the rooftop garden though, kinda relaxing when you're up there enjoying the breeze (:
And of course not forgetting, our pastry kitchen! (:

Oh wells, enough of the school. Haha!
Oh yeah, saw Mabel during the orientation day! :D
Hehe, like really so coincident! We've never met before, but we actually met just on the orientation day :D
Guess like I'm gonna see many of my cyber friends at the campus when school starts hmms.
Hahaha! Shall see who will be the next I sees (:

Hms. What did I do during this holiday? I only remember some!
13June, PJ class outing to Sentosa! The first ever class outing for us (:
Can say it was great! Cos everyone were really active!
Sorry to say, but it's really better than the always N2 outing we had.
But yeah, I was so unlucky for having menses on that day. ):
Which made me had a very serious cramp! Until I can't even move -.-
Stupid ah. And so, under a no choice situation, I actually had to drink hot chocolate under a hot sun!
Furthermore, I drank two cups of it. Oh mys, people are like looking at me with a weird eye, lol!
They must be thinking, why this girl so crazy, drinking hot drink when the weather is killing everyone! :/
Hahah, whatever. I've no choice, eek.

So, I only gets to play volleyball. That's all.
For hours. And at the end of the day, I earned myself a big big patch of blue-black on my hand (:
Hehehe, I'm already used to it, so doesnt really matter. :D
Back to vivocity, dine in at mac.
And jokes, rubbish, laughters and more more more we had there!
Hahahah, we're all just like a bunch of crazy lunatics whom just escaped from an asylum! :/
But seriously, I really had so so so much fun that day! (:
With all those honey-coated words we said despite being infront of others.
Which made them to have the so-called diabetes. Heheh!
That was really funny ttm please, haha!
And yeah, thanks ♥. For being so nice and caring that day, or rather everyday/time! (:
Hehehe. That 2 cups of hot milo was definitely damn sweet! :P

Yupps, so home sweet home after that.
Because there's no movie available for us to watch, so decided to head back home instead (:
Photos taken are all at facebook :D
Tired yet fun and memorable loved day (:
Thanks so much to those who went (:

21st June, Went out with ♥ . To Orchard (:
Went all around the whole Orchard, turning rounds and rounds!
We're so funny please, my god.
From Takashimaya to Orchard Ion to WismaAtria to WheelockPlace and back and fro again for times! :x
Kept walked pass Mango and CottonOn shop, made me so desperate to buy the clothes I want O:
Our purpose is just to find Zara shop and POSB. Hahaha, took us such long time x;
And so, after finding POSB, ♥ brought me to his favourite restaurant to lunch at (:
Hahah. The food there, was really nice, omg O:
Like so so full after that meal, hah.

Went back to Cineleisure. Caught our movie, The Toy Story 3D. :D
Hahahs. Damn cute movie, but it'll be scary if your toys at home really does talk and stuffs! HAHAH.
I love the part where the Ken and Barbie were talking.
Barbie : I . Ken : Love . Barbie : You! Ken : Yes yes, see you did that! So now your turn.
Ken : I . Barbie : Love . Ken : You! Hahaha, there you did it!
LOL. Damn cute. And the Mr potato part where he's disfigured, and becoming funny shapes x;
Hehehe. Should watch if you haven't :D

After movie, continue with the search of Zara outlets.
To Liat Towers, finally found! At last, he managed to bought his Perfume. Hahaha!
If not I think he'll be so moody for the day x;
Hahah, after that, back home. (:

Hms. And so, 23rd June, another class outing to Sentosa, again.
This time is, 4NA class outing. Which I had a effing hard time planning, thanks to people not replying! Pissed.
Nothing much. As usual. Volleyball again, and played in the sea, and captain's ball.
Hahah. I don't want to get myself tanned again, so I didn't really stayed under the sun (:
Mummy said I'm very tanned already, am I? Lol. Maybe I am, as compared to the previous me x;
I know I'm even much fairer last time, omg :/

Left Sentosa @ around late noon.
Went for dinner at burgerking, yums yums :3
Hehe. Went to walk around while waiting for ♥ to reach (:
Reached, and parted with Melanie, Geokting, Weiting and Eeming.
Walked and wonder around the whole vivocity while waiting for time to pass.

Until 950, movie time :D
Watched "The A-Team". Which was really a great great fantastic movie.
Hahaha! It's worth to be watched twice or even more :D
Yupps, 2hours movie. Ended at 12 midnight (:
Went to mrt, but sadly, we missed our last train available :/
So went to bus stop, I had direct bus back home. But ♥ doesn't have ):
And my bus came so suddenly, I had to leave as it's the last bus x.x .
So, leaving him behind to get money and back home himself. Eee :/
Texted all the way, till late night and sleeps (:
Hehe, thanks ♥ , great day with you though it's only a short 3 hours (:

Hahahah. And so, went out with ♥ again, on 24th June.
Accompanied him to cck campus to get his stuffs.
Spent the time touring the whole campus (:
Took his stuffs, and off we go.
Trained all the way down to Bugis. (:
Walked around, finding atm again. Can't decide on what to have for dinner, hms.
And so, ♥ suggested having his so-called good food at Illuma. (:
Okay, and so we went. Dine in at Empire State (:
First time been there though. Ate Spaghetti, and it was superbly awesome O:
And what ♥ ate was totally wow to me, Lol! Hahaha, but really nice though :D
Hehe, thanks so much! For bringing me to good places always (:
Trained back home after that (:
Thanks again, for sending me back! ^^.

25th June, orientation to cck campus (:
Trained down to Teck Whye myself despite the heavy rain.
And caught myself in the heavy rain, being all drenched like I don't know what x;
HAHAH. And so unlucky, the campus is full of air con, made me cold like toot :/ Hahah.
Skipped skipped. After tour, trained down to vivocity together with ♥ and Mingxi.

Brought movie tickets, She's out of my league.
Went to CMPB to do his ns stuffs, and wasted don't know how long there just by waiting.
Skipped, don't want elaborate. Hahahs!
Made us missed our 225pm movie time for almost an hour.
So decided not to watch, and brought another ticket to the same movie. :/
Went to lunch at Burgerking (:

Rushed back to cinema again, hahaha.
She's out of my league, damn funny and awesome movie (:
Must watch too! :D

Trained to Yewtee after that, thanks again, sending me back to Jurong despite being so tired.
As I've night class, yikes. But it's chemistry this time, practical :D
Played with all the acids, fun ah. Seeing the solution changes colour, very cool :P
Hahaha. Trained down to JE after class which is like 10pm, met up with mum there and went IMM.
Walked around, trained back to Batok (:

Dine at coffeeshop. And mummy asked me who I went to watched movie with.
And so, I told her the truth this time round x;
I said I went with 2 guys. And there she ask, so I sat in between? I say no, at the side.
So, she jumped to the conclusion of the one who sat next to me must be my boyfriend then.
And me lazy to argue, so I answer her with hannar hannar.
Yes! Surprisingly, she actually really believes that it's my boyfriend. LOL.
Okay, good! She finally doesn't nag at me about boyfriend, oh mys. :/
Hahahah. I'm so gonna make her not worry about me having boyfriend, yay x;

Okay, I guess that's all for the whole holiday. Lol!
One last event. 29th to 30th, class bbq @ Ecp. (:
Tonning overnight there, yay!! *Happy happy.
2 more days, can't wait! Hehe :3

Alrights, I actually spend 3hours in blogging this post, due to using phone to post ah. Lols.
Just watched finish Mr Bean's Holiday, haha! :D
K, shall go off now! :/

I'll reply all the tags real soon alrights? So sorry, I couldn't reply to it now.
Cause using phone, can't see all the tags ):
Yikes, promise soon soon!

Update again! I hope so.
I really miss blogging ):
Ciaos.

`Baby, I'm always be loving you, now and forever, it will never ever change (:

Letting your loved one seek for their happiness,
then that's what really called love.


`Edited. Due to boredom, so went to edit for the sake of editing :O
But still, loves my cam-whoring photos :D

Hai darlings (:

I feels so like ranting out what's inside me, but i can't, and so maybe i won't.
Though i know bottling things up to myself is a bad thing, but no choice!
I rather keep them to myself than to see people worrying (:
Or perhaps, sometimes i don't even know what's bothering me, lol.

Mmhms. There's a reason to the title up there.
Just like the point to why i posted the recent facebook status.
Cause i just simply don't get why, is clinging onto someone a good thing?
Yah, true that i doesn't have the right to voice out anything, but really, who cares?

Ask yourself, would you be happy when you know your love one is unhappy? No.
Would you be happy when you know your love one is miserable? No.
Would you be happy if your love one can't have his/her happiness? No.
Would you be happy if your love one always been stressing over you like fuck? No.
Sorry, if it's me, i rather let him go to seek for his own happiness.
Cause none of us will gain anything by staying, only misery and tears.
If your answer to those above are all yes, then i guess you're sick in your mind.
Yaaa. Isn't loving someone is to let him/her have his/her happiness?
If all these haven't been through your mind ever before,
start thinking about it and make your decision, before it's too late.

Alrights, shall put a stop to that sudden topic above.
Mmhmm. I admit, i wasn't really in a good mood in school today.
I don't know why, don't ask, cause i wouldn't know how to answer you either ):
I suppose it's just a super sudden mood swing bahs -.- Yaa, crazy me.

Really dislikes how things can change overnight and things going on with all the,
fake smiles, fake laughter, fake kindness, fake closeness. Fuck -.-
I ain't a charity enterprise, there isn't a need for all those 'kindness donations'.
All i cherished is true things, that's all.

If you're unhappy with me, just let me know.
If you wants to gossips about me, just fucking do it right infront of me.
If you loves to badmouth me, go ahead cause it wouldn't spoil much of my reputation.
Go ahead, if you people thinks the way you thinks, i couldn't care less, i'm just me.
No point giving me attitudes and starts to guailan me like some kiddo -.-
Whatver it is, give it up. It's not like i only have you, i've others still (:

But anyway, i really appreciates certain people's care and concern towards me today.
As i said, was being moody the whole day in school by NOT talking much.
Mingxi, Siti & Ain. Thankyou very much for caring (:
I'm okay, really i am (:

Hahahahaha, yes i'm definitely okay.
Mhmm. Teacher suddenly asked if i needs any time-break for my O levels preparations.
I was like, okayyyy i don't know?
Because if i were to want the time-break, means i wouldn't be going school ._.
And means i'll also miss out my course stuffs if i were to not go school -.-
Stupid only, so hard to choose. But i guess, i'll still go school laahs.
Though i'm really stress out, i'm really afraid i couldn't cope..... Zz
Sighs ):

NEA test tomorrow, haiyo.
Hygiene, Hygiene, Hygiene!
Jiayous, all the best again people (:

I wants to go sentosa, sian.
Who else are interested? N2'06 people, yay :D
Oh, of course not forgetting my good friends from N2'09 too :D
I miss you guys, meetup one day k (:

Off to study a bit of hygiene notes, just to prepare for tomorrow's test.
I wouldn't want to fail and get monitored by people, LOL.
Ciaos.

Hey love, i love you, i hope you know, but you should know it, don't you? :D

♥ To love and be loved.


That's how basketball tears :D

Hai darlings :D

Just came to anyhow update, for the sake of updating ahs.
Just to give a reply to someoneeeeee, hur hur.

Night class later on, sian die ):
Anyway, i also don't know what to update about -.-

kkkkkays, that's all laahs k. Heehs!
&& to someone : (You know who you are!)
Cheerup okays, don't think too much! I hopes nothing happens too.
Cause you're worrying the hell out of me by doing all those just now -.-
Kill you lor, blehs. ;eeks

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To : Melanie, Jie.

Just to reply back to your special post for me @ your blog.
Due to your comments unable to type so long ah, ahahah!
Yaaaa, so, here's the long reply which i'm referring to k!

Awwww, so sweet of you huh! Always featured me in your posts! Loveyou laahs (:
Mmhmms, yeah luh. True that we've not been talking to each other much lately!
So sorry aye, everyone of us been busy with school works so much, tests & exams,
stressing the hell out of me also. Zz.

Yaaa, i do reads your blog too, just to update myself all about you. *wink wink.
But whatever it may be, dont worry alrights, we wouldn't drift apart!
We're the best sisters, remember? HAHAHA :D

Like you said, nobody understands you better than i do!
Of course i'll not give up this special placing to others laah, damn honoured leh!
Hohoho! So, don't think too much okays!

Anyway, yaaa! Sentosa outing again with our usual N2's sentosa enthu people again?
I really miss those trips out to sentosa together too!
Hurhur. Set a date, ask me again! I'll try my very best to make it during holidays! (:
Don't put it on 12 or 13 june enough, cos i'm going sentosa with my class on that day.
Okay, lastly before i stop typing, missyou sister! ;mua

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Ohhhhhhh yeah, i forget to mention one thing.

`I don't entertains no-lifers whom stalks my blog all day long :D

Doneeeee, off to play game.
Ciaos.

♥ Having you by my side, i'm contented enough (:

I'll always be there for you, regardless whether you're mine or other's (:









Hello little earthling! (:

Once again, back to updating!
As you can see, I've changed my blogskin, like finally!
I've been wanting to change, but no time to do so, plus I'm lazy too!
But, I still managed to change it today lah! :D
Heehees, hopefully it's a nice one again (:
Changed the biography part to paragraph type too, seems to be better! Heh.
Just a short intro, find out the rest yourself! (:

Actually, I'm using my phone to blog again. Lols
Yaaaa, quite troublesome, but neverminds! Rather be troublesome than blog dead :/
Hahahah, uploaded those photos in advance just now while changing skin.
So now just come type type type only :D

Yup yup, as you can see, those photos are lovely right?!
Of course they are, got me inside leh! Hahahahah, bhb! Joking only, don't take it seriously hor ;x
But yeah, first 2 photos, are taken during the last day of our orientation camp @ discovery centre (:
I really miss the camp so much lah please!
I wished the camp was 3d2n, instead of 2d1n, so short! -.-
Gees. When is there such thing again? Hmms.
Or perhaps, our own class chalet?!?!?! O:

And and, last 2 photos, taken during practical about a month ago.
Hmms, had much fun with that group of people previously (:
But we won't be having that fun again, cause we've all been separated into 2 groups. How saddening ):
Oh wells. No choice, nothing we could do to change teacher's mind. ;crys
Whatever, live with it O:
Yaaa, anyway, spot me in the photos. Heehees! :D

Alrights, I'm currently damn freaking bored to the max max max!
Unable to text with him, the feeling really do sucks like hell.
Been almost 5hours, since the last text! Aiks, I really miss you.
Knowing he's out with girlfriend, simply just can't help in getting jealous ><" .
Eeks, so sorry, I'm feeling jealous over your going out with her again x;
But anyway, hope you enjoyed instead of frowning all day luhs! O:
And, just got to know from Mingxi and Yaojie about tomorrow, I guess you're gonna be upsets again! ):
Aiyo, I also sian-ed all the way, not sian half this time :/
But if tomorrow really can't, then go on Monday nor, no choice! O:
Hope you won't be frowning after knowing they can't make it ):

Okay, I'm really missing you like hell.
Until you wouldn't know how much I am doing so! O:
Just wished my phone would rings all of a sudden with you contact name popped out right now, this moment!
Gees.

Ohhhhh yeah. I'm so elated that they supports me to be with you x;
Teehees. I wished upon a shooting star, for whatever I wished to come true! (:
Wishing well, wishing box, whatever it takes for my wishes to be granted k ! :D

Okays, long post with phone again!
Time to run I guess, plus also, time to go night-dream infront of tv again :/
Blah blah blah, ciaos!

Oh darling, you'll be the only one I love.

Hello loveliest! :>

I'm finally here to update again!
But this time round, different way of updating.
Simply because, it's the first time I'm using phone to blog @@"
Lol, freaking cool o.o

But sad thing is, I can't upload photo when using phone ):
Gees. Only will be typings and typings ><" .
Sian die hor, tsk tsk..

School days been fun, loved, tiring and so on.
I don't really know how to describe my feelings already.
Things do change, people do change.
Oh wells, I doubt everyone are true to each other lah.
But whatever it is, I'm still hanging on (:

IBSC class test 2 yesterday was really a disaster paper.
I hate it when I can't even recall what I've just seen right before the paper.
Like lame isn't it? On the sugar and milk part.. which I left them ALL blanked..
How clever right? Remembered so clearly, I read it for don't know how many times before I enter the classroom..
But how retarded, I actually can clean forget about everything of it -.-
Stupid only. I hate how stm I can get, really irritated.
Due to being damn stressed and upset, I almost cried after the paper, but luckily, I managed to hold back.
But also not forgetting, him for cheering me up (:

Yaaa, so I managed to cheer-ed up.
Bused to city vibe for lunch @ ananas cafe, and trained down to eunos after that.
His house again, for the dk how many times (:
Yupps, I just find his house damn comfortable, idk why @@" .
Lols. Perhaps the environment there is so much better lah hor.
Also, there's him, unlike my house. That's the only difference right? Hahaha.

They went swimming, again. And I sat there watching, again (:
Yaojie and Mingxi was like so crazy, idk why lol.
While Lester is so engrossed in swimming! Heh.
Yeah, I sat there watching them all along.
Had much laughters and joy anyway!
Laughing damn crazily at what they're doing and saying, really cheers me up a lot, really.
Especially him, who can really made me smiled no matter what lame things he do luhs. Lols
I really enjoyed my days spent with you, truly I did (:

Yeah, and so, reached home @ 11pm plus, almost 12am.
Like wow, that's really the first time I actually reached home so late o.o"
I've never been that late home before, lol.
Plus, was wearing school uniform for the whole day somemore. Hahaha!

But, that's not the main point ah. The main point is,
I've him for the whole day (:
Plus, thanks him so so much for sending me back despite being so freaking tired.
And despite knowing the time he'll reached home after sending me back, 12am plus ><" .
18stops away, he's still insisting on sending me back O:
He's really sweet and caring I can say (:

People are getting jealous, I can tell as it's really obvious..
Sorry to say this, but he's gonna be mine for sure, not now, but next time.
I don't bother how you look at me, how you think I am,
Cause I'm only being true to myself by knowing I really do loves him (:
Try winning him over if you want, but I'm sure I'll fight with you till the end (:

Yaaaa, jealousy kills.
I do feel that tinge of jealousy at times though :/ Hahahaha.
But neverminds lah, at least I did feel jealousy right! :x
Anyway, thanks for everything love. <3
;Eeks.

Holidays are coming, 11th of june I think.
Also means, July will also be coming soon.
And, we'll be moving to cck soon.
Which also means, I'll see my friends soon! ;yay
Especially, sophia baobei :D Imissyou! <3

Okay, my desktop is officially going to die real soon.
So means, I'll only be online using my phone.. -.-
Jidan lo. Sadded ):
I wants a laptop so much! ;crys

Anyway, I just wants to know,
Is there really such thing as forever friends? & also, forever love?
Yeah, complicated and confusing matter which I always have problem with :/
Simply cause, I doesn't have proof against these that there's such thing as forever.
How pathetic :/ Just wished it's all true, no more lies, no more fakers, I'll be more than happy (:

Oks, I've to go. I want watch my nyonya show on 8 already. (:
Such a long post already.
Blogging with phone is really wow o.o"

Ciaos.

You're the reason for everything, I just wants you to be mine. (:

When happiness came, it's just like heaven. (:


Hey, I miss you two sisters of mine, ♥

Hello Darlings :>

I'm currently here to just rush a simple update oks.
Cause i'm using my daddy's lappy secretly! ;eeks
My desktop kinda got problems, so yeah, can't seems to use.

Wells. School was okay, or rather, great most of the times? (:
Yups. Stressful thing is, we're currently having tests tests tests.
Theories tests plus practical tests, oh me god.
Thank goodness, i actually passed my first theory test.
Though we doesn't know our marks yet, but yeah, hope i did passed it well O:

Been rather busy recently eh o.o .
Sorry to Jingjing'Jie, couldn't make it to celebrate your birthday together.
Yeah, and Melanie'Jie, I'll try to make a day free to meetup with you.
You know i miss you, been such a long time since we last met ):
I wants to go sentosa leh :\ ! Hahahahahs. June holidays? You have?
Heh. Tell me again soon, loveyou sister!♥

Holidays are coming soon, but i'm not really looking forward to it anyways.
I rather have school everyday, better than me rotting at home like lazybum. Tsk
But still, my holidays aren't going to be holidays too i suppose.
I've to use that specially June holidays to study for my O levels lah, jidan.
School days study for school stuffs, holidays study for O levels. -.-
Grr. Busy die me, stress die me. I want cry already ):

Problems met in school during the last 3 weeks of school i guess.
Yeah, 'clique' somehow separated. Yaaa, so sorry.
But, the sorry only goes to Siti & Fifah (:
They're only the ones i really treasured in that whole clique.
Sorry to say that, no offence, but it's the fact. Yup, whatever :D
Sorry that i've to leave you girls, we're still good friends though!
Heh, loves.

Alrights. I'm here to update also because of someone laa, you know who you are.
Hahahaha! Tags to be replied again soon alrights, i tryyy to asap!
Geees, i'm competing against the time right now, which really sucks -.-

Kkays, really have to off now!
&, i miss that particular someone right now, like so mad oks.
You know who you are laa right, i know you'll read this.
But don't care, i love you k! :D

You've always been the reason why i smiled.

Genuine love showered. I'm really happy. (:


Practical Lesson are always loved by us.
People in the photos (Left to Right) :
Top : Lengna, Sabrina, Wanting, Eileen, Gina
Bottom : Ayuni, Me, Jasmine, Qingxia
I swear they're all a bunch of hyper, lovely classmates (:

Hey darlings :>

Rebecca back once again, after long, again! Heh.
Quite a couple of things the past few days luhs (:
I shall just blog about them all out today ~
If not i really have no idea what to blog about as well, lol.

28th April, Wednesday (:
Reached school kinda late, thanks to leaving house late.
Plus whole family woke up together as well, mum & bro left for genting.
Yup, rushed to the bus-stop, which was packed like omgees.
But, so coincidentally, i saw Zhixiong'Didi @ bustop eh!
Like freaking long didn't see him already, he changed alot, hah.
So texted him the whole bus journey till i alighted (:

Practical for wednesday, we made Quiches & Pies !
Heh, it's like so nice oks (:
I took photos of it, damn cute oks x;


Just done, before being baked in oven (:


15-20 minutes later, baked with a changed of face in them (:


Quiche, lovely! (:


That's the filling, wildmushrooms + onions + corn (:

Heh. That's just a few, the rest will be uploaded @ facebook instead ^^
But soon laa, cause i'm always lazyyyy what, right :P
Yay, who thinks my products are niceeee? Hehehe :x

Yup, so ended school quite early on Wednesday, 12pm i guess.
I forget what we did after school that day, lol.

Only remember, going down my house downstairs, slacking with girls.
Fifah, Siti & Farah :)
Yupyup, had much fun with them.

And lastly, decided to go for the camp during that night, last minute (:

29th & 30th April, Thursday & Friday !

Orientation Camp @ Singapore Discovery Centre ~

Woke up freaking early on thursday, 5.45am.
Started bathing and preparing, camwhore-ed awhile while waiting for Farah.
Left house @ 6am ++ . Walked to mrt, trained down to J.E (:
Didn't met up with anyone yet, so continue training down to JooKoon instead.
Waited for everyone there (:

Walked into SDC in one big group, how great (:
Doing all sorts of cheers, including the freaking funny yet lame chihuahua move!
We goes, one chihuahua, two chihuahua, three chihuahua, four chihuahua & so on ~
LOL.

Left belongings, and off we started for games (:
Kinda forget the games lah, but quite fun though.
1, using straw to pass rubberband while balancing a cone on top of head.
2, guess the name of celebrity on the paper on other's forehead.
3, whole class to be inside that restricted box and sing a different song for each.
4, guessing the wrong one out of three that selected classmates said.
5, using only newspaper & tapes to build the highest thing without collapsing.
6, tied one of own leg with friend's and walk passed the given obstacles.
7, guessing the words which classmates have to act/draw them out.
8, digital dance by following the computer and dance whatever they do.
9, designing the best technology orchard road, competing with another class.
10, friendly soccer match, the one used to be one tv, the showdown.
11, throwing red/green balls to friends, shouting own name or tgt with friend's.

Hmm, they're not in orders, i guess that's all? Or maybe i forget some, hah.
Elaborate a little further into laa (:

(1) Fun, but abit hard to balance the cone O:
(2) This is freaking lame, plus i'm so sway x.x . Tio Leonardo Dicaprio(sp?) LOL
(3) This is fun ttm, teamwork showned oks. Guys carried girls, girls as well.
(4) The most boring game ever played please. -.-
(5) We all made balls of newspaper, haven't did anything, and given 100points LOL.
(6) This game made me have blue-black on my ankle :( But had fun though.
(7) Funny game, those answers are like superb long ones. Kinda hard to guess ~
(8) Superb paiseh game, have to dance infront of people sials. LOL
(9) Lamelame. Using own creativity to design the best orchard road vs other class!
(10) Funniest game i guess, the ball kept flying everywhere. HAHAH.
(11) Damn funny please, anyhow only! Saboing sias, hahaha. All pulled Ms Tan in :D

Aye, supposingly there's water games. But end up, don't have.
So yup, all are team-building games laa, had much fun though (:
Photos of those games, not all though!


The designer game (:


The Friendly soccer game (:




After the throwing of ball game (:


The bunch of guys in PG (:


During the guessing game, too bored so take photo :\

Oh yeah, the foods for this camp, nice please.
Whatmore this camp is FOC, not a single cent being paid, we've got good food.
Hahahah.

Most terrible & irritated thing for this camp is, the sleeping part.
I've a hard time sleeping, freaking uncomfortable.
Thanks to the freezing air-conditioned room, plus i don't have sleeping bag :(
Which leds to sleeping on the hard hard floor + being cold like shit!
Only slept for 2hours plus i think x.x .. Crap ah ~

Second day of camp, quite a number of people went home.
I forgot what we did :\
But basically, cheerings and stuffs.

Practiced for the performance which we had to do for parents night.
Yup, danced to the song Nobody by Wonder girls.
Which we included the 'BananaDance' into it. LOL
Freaking funny laa please, sibeh paiseh only !

Merged class with Culinary class, a bunch of hilarious guys i must say (:
They're friendly, so are our pastry class ! (:
Yup. All made friends and chatted around, they're really funny.
Hahahha.

Culinary class rocks, pastry class rocks toos.
We're already like so good-friend in just a night? Hahha.
How great to make friends so easily right, i'm so elated oks.
Been so long since i last got new friends so easily (:

But, one saddening news to our pastry class was,
Tasha left us :(
We've one less classmate, really it's saddening.
So many people cried alrights, even though we only knew each other for like 3weeks.
See how lovely our class are! One for all, all for one oks! (:
We cares for each other full time, gosh.

Released @ 8pm plus.
Walked out to mrt in a big group, trained down to JurongPoint (:
Went for dinner, sadly ah, JurongPoint was so freaking packed with people sias -.-
Dine in at LongJohnSilver at last (:

Together with Eileen, Lester & Mingxi.
& the 3 new culinary friends, Weixiang, Andrew & Danny.
Hahah, chatted throughout the whole dinner laa, how shiok (:
Lester being so freaking tired, and ended up being so blur.
The rest of us were chatting away about random stuffs, heh.

Left at 9pm plus, went wandering around JurongPoint.
Off to mrt at 9.50pm plus, they have to go home :(
Sadded, i wanted to slack at first. Blahblah ~

Trained down to JE. Wanted to accompany someone on the train ride,
but thanks to being forced, all asked me to go home first.
Yeah, aiyaaa. I don't like pangseh people laa, that's why.
Like so bad only, accompany us go eat despite being so tired,
that's why i decided to initiated the decision of accompanying back,
since i'm also wasting time at the point of time mah, aiyoyo ._.

Oh wells, reached home at almost 11pm anyways.
Bathed, facebooked, and slept (:

Tiring 2D1N camp, yet great !
But, this camp, really is an unforgettable one for me, seriously (:
All the funs & joys we had during this camp, it'll always be remembered!
Just like how i'll remember you people :D

I'm so in love with my 2010's class, PG & CG rocks aye!

There's a courage called, letting go.
&, that's what i did. (:


Rebecca's companion, reflection.
&ifuckinglovethisphoto(:
Hello darlings :>

That crazy, lazy little blog owner is finally here to update.
I know i've been kinda freaking lazy nowadays in updating laa :\
Thanks to having no energy left for this, inadequate rest, cmi!

Holidays out, school in! I love school you know!
Simply because i've such funny/lovely/crapping/gossiping/caring classmates!
Not saying i doesn't have such friends during secondary school hor. Hah.
Yup, classmates i'm having now are simply great? :D
Though they always bully me ah! Tsk.
Aiya, i'm the shortest among this clique, once again -.-
LOL, whatever. I don't really going to bother about my height anymore also o.o
Can grow then let it grow, cannot grow then leave it, i'm happy enough anyway lol!
Oks crap :D

Yup yup, been cam-whoring so freaking much with those girls.
Like so damn fun lah please. Camwhoring is always loved :)
I'll upload them asap when i've transferred them to comp! Heh.

Lectures in school are totally a boredom, with so much stuffs to copy and copy.
Oh wells, guess we can only bear with it, nothing else -.-
Crap only, hopefully the copying would end soon, real soon!
Anyway, learnt freaking much pastry stuffs in just the 3rd week in school.
Really a lot, and i mean ALOT :O
2 more weeks, to test. wtf -.-
How the shit are we suppose to remember everything,
which others got 3months to study for, and we only have 4weeks to study for lol.
Good lucks people, study bah :\

Today's school was totally great, with the pe lesson of course.
Hardcore volleyball & badminton LOL.
And which leds to bruises over hands now,
and dearest siti is complaining to me about it now as well!
HAHAH. Nvm, because my hand are swollen too! :\

Alrights, it's practical tomorrow.
Fun time again, lovely!
Baking pies with quinche filling :O
Should be nice lah right, let's see.

Anyway, i'm back to plurk :D
Yay.

You chose that path, your decision, i respect it like i respect myself! Fucklove.

Friendship lasts, relationship doesn't! Mind you.


I've a great bunch of classmates, happy for that :)
In the photo (Left to Right) :
Wanting, Natasha, Ain, Hamka, Me, Gwen, Farah, Mizah, Samson, Wendy, Fifah!
NotTheWholeClassHereYet!

Hi :>

Apologies, for not updating my blog for quite some time.
Was really really busy busy ever since school started lah, that's all.
School ends kinda REAL LATE everyday, yup.

School hours are like, 8am to 5:30pm or even later at times.
Like wtf only, screw that timetable LOL.
Totally tiring lah, gosh.

But anyway, good thing is :
New friends rocks, i love them plenty :)
They're all so friendly and caring oks, hahaha.
Just on the third day of school, we're already like some so called 'cliques'.
Good right! Everyone mingles along well with each other.
And now, we even have our own gossiping corner & cliques.
Hahaha! School days are fun with them around :)

Yup, tiring days like i said.
Theories lessons are the really bored ones, copying notes non-stop for hours.
Yeah, it's really killing us out!
But no choice, we still have to do so no matter what lah.
Blame those notes being SO freaking important!
Simply because our test are so near to us, to be exact, 2weeks plus from now.
It's seriously like, wtf oks.
Stress die, it's only the second week in school!
& we're expected to memorize everything in just 4weeks of school! Faints.
Good lucks man :)

Practical lessons are the most enjoyable ones i must say!
Tomorrow practical again, i'm sure we're so gonna enjoy it again right!
Hoho.

Excursion yesterday to FHA'2010 @ Expo.
A once in 2 years showcase, we're so fortunate to even get the chance to go lah!
Only people who've pass/tickets are able to get in, that's why!
Yup, b-e-a-u-t-i-f-u-l culinary dishes & pastries showcase from various chefs!
There're Italian, French, China, Taiwan, Phillipines & even Singapore Chefs!
Their product are totally, a-w-e-s-o-m-e alrights.
Photos of those lovely awesome dishes/cakes will be uploaded on Facebook real soon!
Yup, if you're interested, take a look at my facebook when i've uploaded aye :P
I bet you guys will start wow-ing when looking at them! Don't drool kay :D

Oks oks, i've currently freezed my plurk, for the sake of karma not dropping.
Which really pissed me off when i sees it dropping like nobody's business. -.-
Nobody is able to help me update plurk as well, so decided to freeze it !

Yup, anyway, i may look happy to some of you, but deep down, i'm not at all.
But still, don't worry about me, i guess i'll be fine (:
Some of you might already know what happened, but some still don't i suppose.
Yeah, won't be really telling everyone about it also luh, quite personal.

Aye, school tomorrow! Happy die, cause it's practical!
Shall get out of blogger right now!
& oh yah, hopefully i wouldn't get influence with smoking eh,
cause my class like so many people smokes, mmhmm!
Be glad that i actually hates the smell of smoke, LOL.
& wow, i've been scolding many many many vulgar in school recently, oh wells :\

You know how much i really hates you for doing so, don't regret (: