♥Love of my life.



My dearest boy, AdenCBP. ♥

If only you could read this post right now and sleep well. But I know, the fact is you can't.. Sighs. It's already like 3am in the morning, & I still can't get to sleep.. I really can't stop crying & worrying about you. Each and every second, the only thing which is on my mind is just all these questions,

"How are you doing in there?"
"Are you still alright?"
"Did anyone bully or beat you up?"
"Is there anyone to take care of you in there?"
"When will you ever be out? 2weeks' time, it's long for you.."

I'm really thinking and thinking, I just can't stop. You're just in my mind. I really really really hope you'd be alright, safe and sound.. Be back to my side in a perfectly fine condition.. (':

Your mom called me up, and talk with me on the phone for 30mins. We're just talking about you, saying how much we miss you, wondering how are you doing, worrying for you, awaiting for you return in 14days' time.. Both of us are really really worried about you. & of course not forgetting your brother too.

Baby, you're inside now. & you really have no idea how much we're worrying and caring for you outside. Same goes, we're outside now, we really have no idea how much you're suffering inside.. But please know that, we're ALL waiting for your return. Our hearts are all aching so fucking badly, your mom, texted me and say she can't stop crying. But just nice, I was crying non stop when she texted me.

Baby, we all hope that you'd take this as a lesson learnt, dont make the same mistakes again alright? Everyone around you are giving you a chance to repent, be good silly. Still, thanks baby, you acted strong infront of me when on the phone, in order to let me be strong. You're so noble, thanks a lot silly.

But still, I'm weak, you know I cry easily. & I just can't stop. The moment I think of how you're doing, I would just cry. I can't get to sleep in peace.. I miss all your goodnights texts, and all your jokes. Baby, come back and joke with me as much as you can.. I really miss you so much..

Please come back asap, 14days, I'll count down. & baby know what, it's just nice the 12th. (:

I'll be waiting for you my dear, I love you. ♥

♥ 123 days of love, it's still counting.



Happy 4th Monthsary, baby!♥

Cant believe it's already the 12th of November, time flies isnt it? Since the day we got together on the 12th of July, till now it's already our 4th month! (: Are you happy? Because I am, absolutely happy!♥

4months, a total of 123 days, counting from 12thJuly till today, 12thNovember. Yeaaaah, 4months passedby, how much happiness and quarrels and whatever elses we had been through? Countless. Yeah, countless of happiness, countless of quarrels thingy. But at least, we're still together despite everything we faced, cause we still love each other truly.

Ever since you stepped into my life, you taught me a lot of things and you totally changed my life. I was so damn touched when you told me you wanna marry me. I felt like the happiest and luckiest girl in the world. You're gonna be my one and only and no one can ever replace you, I promise.

Been through many ups and downs together within this 4months. But it didn't felt like 4months has passed. In fact it felt more like years. I'm not joking. You're the first guy that i've spent so much time on, just to accompany you day and night. & be by your side. I remember at the beginning of our rs when I didn't trust you totally because I was afraid of getting hurt for the same reason and also I have been hurt many times before and I just couldn't stand another heartbreak but I just couldn't deny the fact that I fell deeply for you and there was no way to escape from rejecting you as a boyfriend.

Thanks for everything, my dearest boy. Always awaiting for our next monthsary. We'll have our yearsary too. Baby, you're just the only one. The one whom I really couldn't live without, you've already been carved deep in my heart, already became my daily drug which I've to consume everyday. If I don't, my heart would stop beating.

Yes, that's just how important you are to me. Baby, I love you. (: ♥

It's just you. ♥

♥He's the one I wanna marry.



Half a day spent out with baby, to the cinema for the movie, 23:59. Okaaaaay, as usual woke up bathed and prepared, then left house. Reached Buangkok at like 115pm, & walked to baby's house. The only pissed off thing which happened was, my phone can't make any outgoing calls or texts, only could recieve incoming calls and texts. Like seriously damn irritated by it, wanted to contact baby when I reached also can't, weather so hot somemore, made me even more pekcek :O ! Gah.

But yeah, back to topic. As usual for our "lateness for movies", we'll always catch a movie 30mins later. Just like today, which is already the 4th or 5th time we're doing so. Showtime at 115pm, we bought the tickets at 145pm, awesome or what. HAHA. There the person ask us again, like double confirming whether we're sure about watching a movie which is already started like, 45mins ._. . Hahahaha, after buying, went in, and the show is like already halfway through, but still, sat down and enjoy movie. & not forgetting, NACHOS. :D

23:59 , okok bah , not really nice , not really not nice also. If were to rate, I think, 6/10 ? :/ ! Lala, neverminds, at least it's out with baby together watching. (: Baby was like keep on scaring me with those ghostly thing, cus the cinema was dark. F3 ! Made me hug him ever tighter, Lalalaas :$

After movies, went down, decided to have subway for lunch. Sooooo, went over to subway, baby bought for me. Wheee~ Seriously damn niceeee! Hehe. But expensive nar, $20 for 2sets that we bought. Gahh, next time must save money, go coffeeshop eat normal foods. (: Baby kept on looking at me eating :$ ~ Keke. Subway with baby is always awesome ^^. Thanks so much baby!♥

After subway, went down to basement to buy caibing to eat again, hehehe. Bought, and went up and out of amk hub. Usual place, finish eating our caibing before we left. Cab back to HougangMall, unknowingly fall asleep on in baby's hug during the cab ride, like seriously I fell asleep. So comfortable just by being in his hugs :3 Hehehe.

Reached, and went in walkwalk for awhile, some sort of shopping hur? Hah. Yup, went out of HougangMall after awhile. Walked to nearby block to sit down, cus I was wearing heels, legs damn tired. So yuppp, went over to sit and rest. Slack slack on song, chit chat with baby and TT. :$ Hehe. Time like passing so fast, or maybe cus we only have that short lil 45mins time to slack before it's 530. Yeaaah, so walked with baby to his block. Halfway, baby walk towards the road, and say take cab back home. & he helped me flag for a cab, wow x.x . Yeah so, before getting up the cab, gave baby goodbye hug & kiss. Then baby went off too, waited for baby's call on the cab (: Just reached home like 15mins ago ~

Babychia!♥
You've always been the sweetest, always trying to make me happy. Even when it comes to money issue, you'd still bear to spend so much on me without hesitating for even one second. Thanks baby, for being so nice to me. (: Though we only had sucha short 4hours time together, but it's really worth spending. Hehe. Shall see you on this Saturday, for our celebrations. Omgeees, I'm so happy, it's gonna be our 4th monthsary. Yay, Iloveyoubaby! Muaaaaaaaaaaa, ♥

Incase my phone still havent done by tonight, OR
If you're reading this blog post before you sleep,
This is your goodnight "text" for you :

Goodnights babyboy, sweetestdreams. Sleep tight and well alrights? Dont let the bed bug bites! Hehe, that's just a lil phrase I heard last time. :p ! Lalaas. Hope you'll have a good night sleep, awaiting for saturday to come. Sleep well babyboy, Iloveyou and forever I'll be. Never gonna stop this love ♥

Being your lil princess makes me smiles. ♥

Describe today in two word : Fantastic love.

Hm, let's start from yesterday first ^^! Yesterday after work like about 9+ or 10pm, after baby went for his relative's wedding dinner, we meetup (: Yuppp, train down to buangkok while baby came back with his dad. Was waiting for my parents to come fetch me, so yup, slack with baby under block. ^^! Slacked at block for more than 30mins, I was like real tired, almost fell asleep while resting on baby's leg. Hahaha, baby insisted that I dont lie down on his leg, else I sure feels more sleepy and want to sleep. He's so smart, understand me so well. Hehe. So yeaah, I got up (: Lala. TT with baby for awhile ^^! After that, baby need to go home cus it's getting late like about 12am already, end up nego with his mom until latest 1215 must reach home :/ Blah. Slack for that short 15mins before going off. But my parents wasnt there yet, so I sat downstairs of baby's house and waited (: Baby being worried for me, so he gave m a call and chat with me till my parents reach. 15mins later, they reached (: So yup! That's all!

&, yesterday night was on the phone with baby at home, till late night 2am+. Guess what? We're actually having a HTHT together on the phone ^^! hehe. Didnt expect that to be happening to us. Like seriously, do we look like the kind of people who'd have htht? I doubt so. But yeaah, we did! Hahaha. & you know, it's so awesome. At least after the htht, we could understand and give in to each other more, dont we? Really loved the moments where you could just say anything, without feeling awkward or something. (: Baby made me smiled before we hanged up the call, he's the love. (:

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Today was simply a very very special memorable worthed spending day in my life. Like seriously, I swear it was. (: Read on and you'd know why did I say so. ^^! Everyday of our life are worth spending, but when it comes to spending it with the person you love together with his family, even if it's just a meal or something particularly small, it's still worth it the most. (:

Yup. Today's meetout was planned just a day ago I think, if I'm not wrong. Hehe. Baby's mom planned to have steamboat at home as a family cus it was a holiday today. & so coincidence, it's monday so I'm off from work too. So she asked me along too. Hmmmm, this morning, so nice of baby, insisted mw to not wake up as early like 6am to meet him and his family to market, and to let me sleep more instead because he knows that I'm tired from work. So yupp, I slept in until about 9+ or 10. Hehe.

Woke up to bathe and prepare, and left house at about 145pm. Trained down to buangkok and waited for baby to walk to buangkok mrt to find me and walk back to his house together. Baby reached, went in to 7-11 bought drinks and walked back together. Went up, and sat down at living room. His mom started asking me to eat the moment I reached, so she was like at there taking out all the foods, heating up the steamboat. Omgees~ So yaa, 10mins later, started eating. Baby accompany me eat, together with his mom. Ate like sooo much! After that baby's bro and dad came out to eat too. Yup, we ate so much from 3pm+ until almost like 5pm only then we stopped! Hahaha, suddenly we're such great eater hur?!

Lala. So yaaa, after the first round of eating, we stopped and rest. Sat down and watched tv, after awhile of tv, went into baby's room and watch him and his bro play blackshot. Likeafum only! F3. But feeling damn sleepy, so was like at there leaning on baby's shoulder ^^! Hehe. Luckily never disturbed until him play blackshot cus leaning on his shoulder might make until his hand controlling the mouse cursor. :b Hehe. Ya anyway, after awhile, baby went in maple, then see see awhile, offed and went out to living room to watch tv again (:

Watched awhile, like about 8pm+ already, baby's mom suddenly came out and ask us to go eat for the second round while she was preparing all the foods again. But something happened, but nothing much, after awhile back to normal again. Me and baby eating, and his mom came out and join us. So was eating together, haha. Down there joking around while eating, the feeling was simply just awesome. Hehe. Aftee eating for like an hour, already 1015pm. We stopped, and went to watch tv until 1040pm. Helped his mom cleaned up everything, and bid goodbye and left.

Baby walked with me to nearest mrt, he sent me :p hehehehe! We slowly walked to buangkok mrt, reached. Was supposed to bid goodbye before the gateway into station, but baby decided to tap card and follow me into the mrt station and wait for the train with me cus he was worried for me. Keke, sweetest boy ever. (: Yupp, waited 5mins for the train to reach, when train reached, baby went off ony when he sees my train went off (: Hehe. Baby immediately called me when train goes off, & it was at 11:11pm ^^! hehehe.

Yup, that's about all for today. Next paragraph, for baby. (:

Babychia!^^
Without me saying, you should know how much happiness and warmth today was, absolutely to the maximum. I've never been to a guy's house for steamboat from afternoon all the way till night time 1040pm. Like seriously, 8hours being today, 4hours spent eating together. Just too great to be describe further on. Hehe. Sitting at one big table and having sucha feast as a family, really giving me so much of the family warmth. I rarely have homecooked food or eat at home as a whole family, that's why it's not surprising if I react this way. But this timex it's with the family of a person I love, of course the feeling would be so much unexplainable. Nothing else worth much more than family love. It's hard to find a family of the person you love, that the whole family accepts and have a liking towards you. Yes it's hard, but I found mine, which was yours. It just makes me felt as though i'm already married to you, yes I do. (: & resting on the comfy sofa under the aircon watching tv shows together with you only, totally LOVED, & I swear it is. Leaning on you, cuddling with you = (Y) . No words could describe how happy I was. & of course, always being so protective towards me, wanna ensure that I'm safe, alwys double checking. Thanks baby for being so protective, you're really one awesome guy. Thanks for everything today, I'm really really damn happy! Being with you, is the best thing and feeling that I couls ever get. Thanks baby! ^^! It's getting late, had sucha long day, and it's all worthwhile! Still, we've to get our rest, tomorrow is a new day, but it's also getting nearer to the 12th again, hehehe! :b muaa! Have a good sleep my dearest, goodnights baby, sweetestdreams! Sleep tight and well alrights? ^^! hug panpan ohs, keke. Iloveyou babychia, I always do and always will, without stopping for a second. You're always on my mind, you're the only one who couls make me feel the most genuine happiness. Thanks babychia, iloveyou. ^^ (L) !!

Genuine happiness that you gave, worth more than infinity amount of money.

♥The love which you gets from having dinner together as a family.

As usual, work today! Okay, I'm real tired I swear, I seriously gotta sleep before 12am. Firstly, I'm really tired. Secondly, pimple army is having a war with me, rawrrs. Hate it. ): Wanna cure them all soon, as lonh as I sleep early everyday. :/

Okay anyway, went to work at 12pm today, but whatever, go there straight need bake 200 cookies again -.- Sunday made 700 cookies, yesterday made 100 goodies bags and bake dk how many cakes, today made 250 cookies and 100 desserts. Okay what the fuck ._. But nvm, I only know I'm going totally crazy in this job. I just gotten my pay, $427 only. Okay fuck, I hate working for people ); Gah, anyway, I ended work at 630 bah.

Dinner date out with baby and his parents. (: Went to train down to Buangkok, and walked to baby's house to find him. Reached in 10mins times, hmm, baby came down find me. & we went Econ. After econ, went to nearby block to slack while baby puff, & while I rest, cus I ran over to baby house, so I was perspiring like some crazy fuck ._. . Okay so yeah, sat there for awhile. Baby sayang me again and kiss my forehead ^^v . Baby hugged me even though I sweat until my hands so sticky ): Rawrrs. Silly beenie. ♥

After that, went back to econ to buy drink and Hi-chew ^^. After buying then went up to baby's house, ^^. Hehe. Went into baby's room, suddenly remembered I got bring thumbdrive in bag, took out and get the whole maple file from baby :3 Keke. After transferring, baby went to play blackshot while I watch him play (: 15mins, then baby's mom suddenly came out and say let's go, cus baby's dad is already downstairs waiting for us. (: So yeahh, after 5mins, baby off-ed comp and we went down (:

Got up to baby's dad car, baby's dad straight away ask me, why today can end work early then dont want go home. F3, then suddenly ask me so many things. First time baby's dad asked me so many things, if not he's always quiet o.o . Weird.

Anyway, went to Hougang mall nearby. Baby's parents went to spectacles shop to do something with the sunglasses they bought in the afternoon. So yeah, we both tag along while waiting for them to be done. Down there keep talking about glasses, tsk tsk.

After everything done, went to nearby coffeeshop to have dinner. Ate chashaofan together with baby ^^v. Keke, while eating, I finished my soup faster than my rice. Baby's mom noticed it again, aaah :/ . So she was like saying, "She really love to drink soup, she finished her soup even before her rice finish". Eeks. :/ Then she started saying about baby's grandmother about soup, shy~ But the only thing I didn't expect is, I didn't expect baby's mom to auto say a sentence : "Next time if she go ahma house with us". Aww. :$ *seriously frankly being happy inside just now* :3

After we all done eating, baby's mom say send me to mrt straight le cus already late, me and baby both sian ttm :/ . Rawrrs. Then neverminds, I tried to give baby hug as much as I can. And I being so daring, kissed baby inside the car. :x Keke, if not like no chance before we leave ): . So yeah, risk it even though I know if baby's parents saw it, I'll sure get scolded :/ Hahaha, but neverminds, it's worth. ♥

Baby's dad drove to Hougang mall outside carpark there and let me alight, bid them both goodbye, and baby sent me to mrt station inside ^^v. Trying to walk as slow as we can to save more time together, after talking and disturbing awhile, bid baby goodbye and give goodbye hug&kiss before we left (: Hehe, baby's awesome! (:

After that, baby texted me. And so we started texting (: But halfway through, something happened, so yeah, nothing much too. Was in mrt all the way, but suddenly my heart aches so badly, that made me have real difficulty breathing, really like the asthma feeling, each time I breathe, my chest pain once ._. . So yeah, couldn't take it, and so I cried all the way back. x.x .

Was crying while walking home, but baby called and apologized to me, said he love me, and made me smile back (: Thanks baby, (': You're always great. ♥

Babychia!♥
Silly, I always understands you. I must admit, perhaps sometimes I'm really dumb, but hope you could bear with my dumbness, because I'm really mentally much slower as compared to others, idk why :/ . I'm sorry for always saying sorry, even when there's no need for me to say. I'm really too used to apologizing, guess it's a habit of mine, bad habit. :/ ! Hope you'd understand and forgive me whenever I do. Back to you, I understands your attitude and temper, I could understand, that's why I've always been giving in to you without saying anything, if you realized, I know you did realize (: No worries, I'd say more "iloveyou" , than saying "imsorry". (: But anyway, I'm really glad that no matter how much we argued/bicker/quarrelled, the both of us always understands each other in the end. At least, I'm always hearing you say, "Iloveyou baby". (': Just like just now. I just want you to know, you're the greatest guy I've ever met, greatest boyfriend I ever have, the one who'd never bear to anyhow vent anger on me, the only one who could love me so much more than his pride and his life. The only one who've been loving me so truly and deeply, yeah, that's you. (: Iloveyoubabyboy, I always do. (: Anyway, it's getting late, time to sleep? Goodnights baby, sweetestdreams! Sleep tight and well aye, hug panpan like how I hug dodo (: Hehe, iloveyou. ♥

Baby, you're all that I've ever got. ♥