Wooooo, I'm back!
Super sorry, 对不起!
I wasnt really able to come blogger.
Wells. I've my reasons when i didnt blog.

Okay la. Frankly speaking,
today's post, not really nice perhaps?
It's just posted for a single person.

I'll reply tags asap alrights?
Sorry peeps.

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Alright.

Cyrus Lee Wei Kai..
I'm all along being nice to you, even after we broke up.
I remembered i once said, we'll still be Jie & Di after breaking up.
You agreed to it as well, didnt you? Yes you did.
Yep, so i did my part, regard you as my Di after we broke up.
Even though i still cant really get over you that time.
At least that proved i did loved you truthfully, unlike you.
If i were to forget you within a day after break up, what does that mean?
Think it yourself! What's does that really mean?
It simply means, i'm just toying with you feelings. Isnt it right?
But what about you? What did you even regard me as?
Regard me as an irritating person that disrupt your life now and then?
Who's the one who disrupt whose life now? It's you.

(Maybe, that pissed you off a little. Sorry. Just read on.)

Yeah. How about the audition couple thing?
You gave me your words, that you would leave it there untouched.
Letting me have the last memory of us both.
Since like you didnt audi much already, cause of your computer.
But what did you do? You went in and divorce it without my knowing.
& what? Even went to coupled to someone named -KRISTY?
Changed name to -CYRUS? So sweet of you both huh.
You want to break the couple, at least let me know about it?
I wouldnt say no to you. But, did you even ask?
NO! You didnt. You just went ahead with your plans,
and went coupling with that girl. What's your meaning of this?
Neverminds about this, dont really care about audition already.

You took me for granted? Toyed with my feelings? Fooled me for months?
I know somehow you're true to me as well. But not for the whole 4months.

Right? Previously, you did loved me. I know.
But after that,? You played me. I make sure you regret your misdoings.
You know clearly what you did to me, better becareful about it?
If i ever said it out, you're the one who's guilty of it. Not me.
You know the consequences of it. Dont you?
Dont force me, you wouldnt know what i'll do.
I cant take it any much longer..

You love hong-ing girls so much?
You think you're the king, doing whatever you want?
So sorry, you're not. Dont think you are.
Perhaps, you might be king to her, but not to everyone.

Fooling around with woman is a pleasure to you huh?
I advice you, not to take woman for granted.
You'll surely get your retribution one day.
You might regret later on, when things starts to befall you.
Dont come crying by then. I dont know if i'll comfort you.

If things happened in the future, make you live with no regrets.
I posted a shoutout in facebook few days ago, regarding bastard thing.
I explained myself to you, it's not you whom im writing.
It's just some online friend of mine, that been pestering me.
Why do you have the mindset that i'm talking about you?
Oh! Your guilty conscience strike you?
That you let me down by dumping me whenever you want,
and running off giving your love towards another girl?

(Read on somemore.)

Why didnt you admit you're with her when i messaged you that day?
Yet you still can replied me, She's not your girlfriend for goodness sake.
If you did told me the truth that day, I'm obviously fine with it.
I dont mind you finding another girlfriend,
it's just, why must you lied to me just to get your way through it all?

Yeah. You're not a bastard to me, though.
Nicola thinks that you're her hero, you're her king, you're her everything.
But come to think of it. You, think carefully.
Well. You know clearly well, that she's also a hongster.
If one day, she were to dump you and run off with other guy,
and leaves you right behind alone, all by yourself.
What would you feel? How would you've reacted?
I doubt you'll be anywhere happy. Dont you?

(I know you're quite pissed until here, but still, read on.)

Put yourself in my shoe, my senario of what happened to me.
If you were the one i dumped, and i ran off to be with another guy.
And leaving you behind to clear a big mess, a big mess of emotions.
All by yourself, alone! &, i doesnt give a fuck about you after it.
& when you talked to me, i ignored you. I dont give a damn about you.
How? How would you really feel when you were the one going through this?
Going through all this nonsense, this rubbish, this big mess?
Yes, that's all what you did to me.. Remember?
I doubt you do.

THINK OF IT, BOY.
When all those are done to you.
Nobody knows their own future. I dont know yours either.
Who knows she might just leaves you behind one day?
Nobody knows! Even she herself, doesnt know it.
If you ever asked her a question like, "would you ever leaves me?"
OBVIOUSLY, she would answered you "NO OF COURSE I WOULDNT" without thinking.
Know why? Cause you ARE her everything, she's afraid of losing you.
But. Have you ever wondered, if that's really true?
If that really came out from the bottom of her heart?
No, i doubt so. You once answered me that before,
you said it right in the phone to me. So real, so believing yet it's fake.
But what has it became? You still left in the end, didnt you?

I'm not spoiling her reputation, nor her name, yours neither.
Just trying to let you think, what's or who really worth it.
I'm not implying that i am the one who worth your love, No.
I doesnt even worth it. But, Someone else does!
I dont know who that person is, neither do you.
It's in your future, where nobody knows.

I dont know whether you'll start thinking about what i said,
seriously, i dont know.. i dont know if it ever crossed your mind.
Perhaps, you might think i'm just trying to spoil your relationship?
Sorry. I'm not doing so now. Wouldnt deny i once thought of it.

Sorry if my post hurts you or whatsoever.
I just want to make myself clear, and make you have a clear mind.
I doesnt sound great, because i am not even great.
Well. If you insist on going your way, i guess i'll gives up.
Gives up on talking sense into you.
&, you shall go ahead with your plans.
For goodness sake, please not regret on your decision.
You can only live once in your teenage life.
Make full use of it. Rather than making wrong decisions that ruins your life.
Yes there is a second life, but it's not 100% you be back who you are.

I'm not upset. I'm not, i swear (:
Dont need to prevent or ignore me.
Yes, friend said i'm blinded by love.
I admit i am.

I used to think you're so great.
You're so good to me, well it's true that you treats me well.
Used to think you're my everything.
Used to believes all your honey-coated words.
Used to believes all your promises made to me,
of not leaving me. Of not abandoning me.
See? Now what? You still did, even though you said you wouldnt.

Arent this as similar as what you and Nicola is now?
If she ever asked you that question, of whether you'll leave her or not.
I know you'll definitely answer her, No you'll stay by her side.
Of course, that's for sure. When you're in love with her.
Ask yourself, if that really came out truly from you.
You asked her, she will of course answered back the same to you.
Your promises made to her, honey-coated words said to her..
who would say, "Yes i'll leave you one day".
I know you wouldnt say this.

I had enough said, it's your life.
I'm just trying my best, changing your wrong way of thinking.
My last and final time.. that i'm going to say it.
I never had that thinking of time being wasted talking sense to you.
But if it still doesnt go in, then it might be time wasted.
I dont know, dont bother..

But whatever it is. You think it through what i said yourself.
If you wants to let nicola knows what i said, what i blogged today,
i guess that's a super wrong decision made by you.
That's why, i kept my blog locked.
For you to read it, only.

No matter how things gonna turn.
You're still my Di. Nothing gonna change it i guess?
No matter how you hates me, how irritating you finds me.
It's just the fact. I dont ask for much.
As long as you treats me as your simple friend, i'm okay.
You also know, i hates ending friendship..
Whatmore it's talking about Ganship & friendship together now.
You think it through yourself..

& lastly, i dont loves you anymore (:
Dont worry about it. I've already gave my love up.
If your mind changed, it might increase.
But. The love towards you, can only be considered as sibling loves.
That's the limit for my love towards you.
It only applies if you changed your mindset.
If it doesnt, it'll only be friendship love (:

Yes. Game's Over boy.
I stopped loving you since then ;

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I'll edit post again later on.
End it off here first.

&, Ranted at 3:57pm.