Well. Guess these are the only things i could keep as memory.
I think you doesnt have all of it with you right.
Boy, grab those you doesnt have if you want (:

It ended. Just like that.. For no valid reasons..
Yep, i know both of us didnt wished for this ending. dont you..?
But things just came unexpectedly, like you said.
I always thought we're going on so fine.
But who knows, i've been kept in the dark of so many things.
Well. I wont ever blame you for that.
I know you just didnt want me to worry (:
Thanks for that, really.

I've not been sleeping for 2days. Maybe, 30mins, that's all.
Haven been eating proper meals, or perhaps never.
I've no appetite, no mood for anything.
Whenever i shut my eyes, you starts to come in.
Whenever i use the comp, i'll thought of you spamming me at msn.
Whenever i opens up my blog, it reminds me of what i blog all about you.
Whenever i use my phone, it reminds me of you. Cause of your photos.
Whenever i watch television, it reminds me that you're not a TV addict.
Whenever i goes to bed, it reminds me you were once on it before.
Whenever it's morning, it reminds me there's a morning call from you.
Whenever i plays facebook, it reminds me you were the one who asked me
place those games. Fish Wrangler, Mafia Wars, Pet society, Restaurant.
I really dont know how to get over you, seriously.
Yeah, now should be the time you listen to Avril Lavigne song..
It's true that you're gone right now..

I know.. We wont be back together anymore..
I asked you that, you know what you answered me.
So hope your mind would change in the future.
If it ever change, please.. let me know.
You know i'll wait for you.
Perhaps you might say, i'm wasting my time for doing that.
But, i'm telling you now, once and for all.
If one day i could have the chance to get back to you,
all my waiting, all my persistance, are all worthwhile.
Simple because, i'm waiting for a greatest boy that will
never fails to make me smile.
Yep, that person is none other than you.

Anyways, Thanks for being with me for 143days.
In this 143days, i really did enjoyed myself to the very max.
You brought all sorts of fun and laughter to me.
Yeah and, you also returned me 143 times of "iloveyou" to me.
I thanks you truthfully for that.
Nobody ever done that before, only you.

Well. Frankly speaking, being with you is the greatest thing ever.
Shall repeat it, again.
YOU made me know what's love.
YOU made me felt so loved.
YOU made me felt so blessed.
YOU made me smile sweetly.
YOU brighten up my days.
YOU understands me well most.
YOU never made me frown.
YOU gave me the warmth i needed.
YOU gave me the care i wanted.
YOU holds my hand whenever i go.
YOU're the one whom i'm worried most.
YOU're always so protective of me.
YOU're always looking out for me.
Thanks for everything you did for me.
Thanks for your tolerance.
Thanks for your willingness.
Thanks for your forgiveness.
Thanks for your sacrifices.
I'm really really really touched by all your actions & words.
Yep, that's what you did in the past 143days.
I'm always feeling so blessed those days, really (:

Maybe i did say the wrong thing yesterday night.
That made you jump to a conclusion that we didnt want.
But, i'm really NOT implementing anything to you.
I just cant bear to continue seeing you in such agony state.
I cant bear to see you break down even more because of me.
No no no, i dont want! If leaving your side, release your agony,
release your frustrations, release your headaches,
i will, just let go.. (':

And yeah, i did. I let go of you..
Hope you'll lead a life that's free of those unhappy things.
Well, you promised me alot of things yah.

Dont cry anymore. You're always strong! (:
Dont hurt yourself. Emotionally or physically, No!
Dont eat anymore sleeping pills to sleep, No!
Dont play too much games after your June holidays!
Dont get so worked up because of your maid. She's leaving soon!
Takecares of yourself, dont keep falling sick so easily!
Takecares of your heart problem. Rest if you need to!
Eat when you're hungry. No more lazying! No one to nag at you anymore.
Love yourself, & your dad and mum. They loves you the most!
Score well for you Eoy. Prove to your mum you can actually do it!
& lastly. Take bestest care of the two cute little bears!
They shall be your gurdian angel, when i'm not around.
Remember to get them to bed every night as usual yah!
Better not neglect them both. If not they're gonna haunt you :0
Yep, that's all. Thanks for your promise, keep your promise well.

Sorry for making you fall in love with me right from the start.
Sorry for letting you make the wrong decision of being with me.
Sorry for letting you suffer all these while.
Sorry for being so irritating all these while.
Sorry for calling & smsing you non stop.
Sorry for being such a bad, uncaring, un-understanding girlfriend.
Sorry for everything that i've done.

Well. People always regrets after something is done.
Seriously hope you'd like just give me another chance in the future.
The chance to repay you, to make up for you.
The chance to continue loving you..
I hope, my wish will come true one fine day.. (':
I'll wait..

No matter what i do,
No matter how hard i cry,
No matter how upset i am,
No matter how heartbroken i gets,
No matter how many days i cant get to sleep,
i'll try my best to live on happily for you.
But i cant promise, i can only try for now.. (':

I'll always remember you, deep down in my heart.
And, 170109. It's a date i'll always remember.
Never will i gonna forget that date.
Never forget how you first told me you loves me.
Never forget how you first kissed me.
Never forget how you first hugged me.

Never forget how caring you were to me.
Never forget how we first met on the MRT.
Never forget how we sat in the cinemas.

Never forget how we used to play in playgrounds.

Never forget how we ate those pasar malam foods.

Never forget how we bicker on phone or anywhere.

You're the greatest boyfriend to me, i swear.
That's all. I know it ended, but you still wants to
love me as someone special to you..
Well, you're always that special someone to me, ever.

&. Dont forget to bring me out often!
That's what you promised me today :0
Dont forget to visits my blog often to tag!
Dont forget to talk to me frequently in msn/sms/phone when you can!
Yes, that's all.

Spent 2 long hours on just this post.
Sorry, wasted your time on such a long post for you to read.
Anyway, Hope you're alright, hope you're feeling much better (:
Takecares..

Boy, i love you. I meant it deep down.
I wished i could get back in time..
Just to be with you.. (':
{I wishs..}