Things just came unexpectedly.
Problems just keep coming my way.
Tears keep flowing down non stop.
Why am i always the one?

Was happily waiting for you to come home.
Until evening, yet there's still no news about you.
Was so fucking worried sick about you, i actually cried.

It's like the really first time i ever got so worried about someone.
Spammed call your phone, hoping it'll be back on.
At last, it got throughs. I felt so relieved.

But. Things didnt turn out the way i expected.
The moment you got home.. What did you do?
Yeah you did called me, but i wasnt convenient to talk.
And where did you went after that?
Well, you should know..
By waiting patiently, happily, anxiously for your return
after a long day, more than 10hours of waiting..
that's what i got from you. Is that what i should get?
Nah, i'm not blaming you okay, just merely telling/asking (:

When i asked you to call me, you claim that your phone no batt.
When i said i wanted to call you, you claim that your mum around.
Is everything really so coincidental? Only you know.

Tell me the truth? I want to know! :O
You gave me the feeling of being avoided by you.

Whenever you apologize to me, i would always say..
Nevermind, it's okay my dear (:
Well sometimes it's true that i dont mind,
but sometimes it's a different situation yeah.
I might show i wouldnt mind, but i kept it to myself.
All because of one simple reason,
I JUST WANT YOU TO BE HAPPY, AND SMILE THROUGHOUT! (:

I didnt sleep for the whole night..
All because of all those cryings and thinkings..
made me cant get to sleep as soundly like the past.
How great, eyes are like fucking swollen today.
Heart was like aching so badly through the night.
I'm not feeling any tiredness, nto regretting for not sleeping.
But thinking all about you the whole night.
It's all worthwhile, if i could get things back on track!
Even if it takes me 3days to not sleep, to keep things carry on,
I would not fall asleep no matter how tired i am!
All i want you to know is, i'll do anything for you (:

I dont want you to be sorry.
I dont want you to be guilty.
I dont want you to be upset.
I dont want you to be frustrated.
I dont want you to be in a dilemma.
I dont want, I dont want!
I just want you to be happy, that's all.

Perhaps, think about what your gbgf said?
Okay i've no idea what she actually told you the other time.
But it must be something that can get into your head yah (:

A relationship takes two hands to starts,
but it only takes one single hand to end.
Dont be that single handed person.
As you said yesterday night, I CAN SAY NO.
Well, i'm telling you.. A BIG BIG NO to that question!
I'm not giving up no matter what,
i know there's still hope, there's still a miracle for us.
Stay stong, dont give up.. And
we'll see our hard work paid off eventually.
But if we didnt hold on, and just end it this way,
we're no difference from a coward who just run away from
problems and not solve it till we get some hope.

Listen to that particular song, Remember our fun times.
Didnt you had fun all along? I hope you did.
You know, what we been through together this past 4months.
Although there're some unhappiness in between somehow,
we managed to get through it until today right?
Why cant we just hang on till the very end,
and fight for our own happiness?
Yes we can. I believe in you, you can do it.
I know you're strong, you'll hang on.
Would you..?

How i wished everything would go perfectly for us.
How i wished you could be by my side every moment.
I cant imagine life that's without you.
I would be really lost without you.
How am i going to be strong without you by my side.
If only i could hold you right now, this moment,
i would hold you so tightly and never let go a single second.

No other guys can replace you.
No matter what, i'll be right here waiting for you.
No matter what, i only wants you for the rest of my life.
Not because of you money, not because of your goodlookings.
But simply, because of your heart.
You changed me, my life, my attitude to the better side.
My parents cant do it, but you actually did it (':
Did you know about all these good stuffs? Thinking positively.
Be my last romance, the last guy for my life.

Well. I guess i'll stop here.
The rest, depends on you.
I gave my best towards this, it's your turn now.
Gives up on everything, or hang on till the very end.
Let's take one step at a time my dear, slowly.
Decision making time (:

You know i always loved you.
I spent almost 3hours on changing the blogskin.
Searching for that particular one, that suits my feelings for you.
& that column of romance, I meant every single thing i wrote.
You're my precious one. Let it counts on!



Remember this photo? It was the most memorable photo i ever had.
I love this photo as much as i love you.
Because the hand i'm holding onto while walking down the stairs,
it's not OTHER'S but YOURS my dear!
As i quoted in the photo while editing it,
A long way ahead of us. (It's really a long way.)
Just to let you know (I always let you know.)
No matter how long is it (Yep, no matter how long!)
I'm gonna walk till the end with you. (Yes i will, & i mean it!)

& lastly. Remember what i once told you?
It's the greatest blessing to find someone you truly love.
So cherish the relationship. No matter what happens,
do not gives up. As long as you loves him/her,
any problems could be solved.

&, what you told me as well?
Remember what you said about fate?
Yep. We're here together now, thanks to fate.
It brought us both together.
It's difficult for two person to come together,
it all depends on fate, & the love.
Yep so. Think about it, baby (:

You'll always be the one i love, deep down.
I wish, & wish upon that star of miracle.
Just for that slighest hope to be with you.. (':
Forgives me for loving you so deeply.

{♥} Boy, I love you. & i meant it deep down my heart.