1st day without you.

Surviving through the remaining days alone.
It's even worst than being dead.
I rather i'm so dead now.
Perhaps by then, i can manage to stop thinking.

Yep, as usual.
I cant get myself to sleep yesterday night.
I did tried to sleep. But to no avail.
Try reading stories book, failed.
Try flipping through textbooks, failed.
Try doing workouts to tired myself out, failed.
No matter what ways i tried, i still fail.
Zz. There i sat on my bed, throughout the whole night.
Like some lunatic person, sitting down there in deep thoughts.
Staring up to my room's ceiling that's filled with lovely stars.

I remember.

For once, i told you about the stars up on my ceilings.

You saw them as well. Isnt it beautiful when lights are turned off?

There's just one particular star, which is the biggest of all.

I always took it as you. So that i could see you every night.

But, it glowing power seems to fade away.

It's leaving me further and further away :0

I'm tired, really very tired..
After 2 long days of non stop cryings..
I wished to sleep, to let myself rest.
Dont know why i just cant seems to fall asleep.

Went to school as usual, for d&t coursework.
Was like kinda really no mood to do anything.
But, i still have to. Forcing myself to do & forget things.
Wells. I thought i could do it, but.. yeah.
I didnt. While doing, i'm still thinking.
Sorry Melanie :0 You thought i stopped isnt it?
&, for not sleeping yesterday night .__.

1pm, breaktime.
Followed Melanie, Jing, Eeming, Wanting for lunch at CC.
Walked back to school after eating.
Halfway, went to the playground.
Thereeee.. all my thinkings starts to come.
Yeah.. that spinner reminds me of everything.
That HDB void-deck reminds me of everything.
That bench where i got mosquito bite reminds me of everything.
Zz. Everywhere i go :0

Back to school. Continue with the work.
Thanks to the filing process of the acrylic.
Made my heart even more pain. Zzz ~
Heart was already in pain, add on with that eerie sound @.@
I almost wanted to screamed my heart out -.-

Do all the way until 4plus.
Wanted to walk back home, but ..
thanks to melanie. Restrict me from walking home -.-
Insist me on taking a BUS home, instead of walking.
Yep, dont need think. It's obvious, she doesnt want me to think.
Btw jie ah, the moment i got off the bus. I starts to sort of cry :\
So.. No difference lehs x.x

Back home. & there comes.
I started crying out, as much as i could.
Cause of hiding it all inside when in school.
Keeping those inside, seriously sucks.

Tomorrow's tuesday. Well, was suppose to go out with you initially.
But now.. Cancelled, no more x.x Haihs.
I wants to go out..

Sorry.
I claimed that i'll smile, i'll stop crying. But, i didnt.
Oh wells. Leave a tag whenever you're here (:
&, dont block me in msn if you intends to, or thought of it.

If you done it, unblocked it please.

Cause, i didnt do anything wrong to deserved being blocked ._.

&, maybe..
I wont be taking away the column of romance.
Yep. I dont wish to.
Let it just remains there (':

Been listening to Fish leong's song past 3days.
Wells. I always never listened as clearly as now.
It's old songs anyways. Download it if you doesnt have (:
Read through the lyrics.. & understands it well.

勇气

终于做了这个决定 , 别人怎么说我不理 , 只要你也一样的肯定

我愿意天涯海角都随你去 , 我知道一切不容易

我的心一直温习说服自己 , 最怕你忽然说要放弃

爱真的需要勇气 , 来面对流言蜚语

只要你一个眼神肯定 , 我的爱就有意义

我们都需要勇气 , 去相信会在一起

人潮拥挤我能感觉你 , 放在我手心你的真心

如果我的坚强任性 , 会不小心伤害了你

你能不能温柔提醒 , 我虽然心太急更害怕错过你

P/S : I miss you.

&, Ranted at 6:44pm.