♥ I pretended to be alright.



See me smiling everyday, don't you? ^^

Do you really believe those smiles came right from the bottom of my heart? Haha, I doubt so. I ain't anywhere better at all. All I did was, bottled up everything, covered myself up with just a smile, so people around me wouldn't start worrying about me again. ^^

Every night, I still stay up late and think of you, still missing you that much. I don't think you can find another person who miss you as much as I do, cus I'm the most silly girl ever. :D

Yaaaaaaa, you should know. I've been tempting to text you, like seriously. I wanna text you, dude ! But I just can't find the courage in me to do so, cus I'm really afraid you might return me with cold replies, or perhaps you would even ignore my texts or something. Yeah, that's the only reason which is holding me back. If only you could text me, cus you know, die die I'll definitely reply you. Oh wells.

It've been 2 weeks, today is the 15th day without you. Perhaps, I'm still suffering in a way somehow. I wanna see you so much, cus I'm always wondering how've you been lately? I wanna know whether you're fine, wether you did take care of yourself. Yeah, maybe you might find me irritating by all these, but you just gotta know, I'm just caring.

Haha. 15 days of life without you, it's still counting on dude. I really miss you, fucking much. Nobody could ever understand how much is that "much" I'm talking about.