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Hai, back to blogging.

Yeah, totally broke down the past 13days. I fell too deep for this, far too deep from what I expected. Didn't expect myself to like, so deeply in love with him. Whoa, I really don't know what I'm doing too. Oh wells !

I emo-ed. I cried badly every single night. I can't sleep peacefully for nights. I made myself drunk late at night. I slit myself. I even thought of dying. (Y)

Anyway, I caused so much worries in so many of my friends. Seriously, sorry my dearest friends who cared about me. I'm sorry, I caused you guys to worry for me so much.. I hope I'd be alright, soon, yeah soon k. Can't promised, but I'll try.

But for now, I decided to just fake a smile through everything, just to let him know I'm okay. I know I'm not okay at all though, I know myself best. I might be smiling/laughing, but I'm still crying deep inside, sorry I'm still that upset, still that missing you. :)

But yaaa, for him, I smile, tho it's a fake one. But, better than nothing bah. :) I just wished I could see him again, someday, somewhere, right in the middle of a crowd of strangers again. Cause that feeling is so freaking awesome. :)

ANYWAYYYYYYYYYY.

I miss you, SLJJ♥